Fern Leaves from Fanny's Port-folio. Second SeriesFern, Fanny
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Fern Leaves from Fanny's Port-folio. Second Series
Fern, Fanny
American essays -- 19th century; Short stories, American
And then you should nestle ’round me, telling all your little griefs;
for well I know that childhood has its griefs, which are all the
keener because great, wise, grown-up people have often neither time
nor patience, amid the bustling whirl of life, to stop and listen to
them. I know what it is for a timid little child, who has never been
away from its mother’s apron string, to be walked, some morning, into a
great big school-room, full of strange faces;--to see a little urchin
laugh, and feel a choking lump come in your little throat, for fear he
was laughing at you;--to stand up, with trembling legs, in the middle
of the floor, and be told to “find big A,” when your eyes were so full
of tears that you couldn’t see anything;--to keep looking at the ferule
on the desk, and wondering if it would ever come down on your hand;--to
have some mischievous little scholar break your nice long slate-pencil
in two, to plague you, or steal your bit of gingerbread, out of your
satchel, and eat it up, or trip you down on purpose, and feel how
little the hard-hearted young sinners cared when you sobbed out, “I’ll
tell my mother.”
I know what it is, when you have lain every night since you were
born, with your hand clasped in your mother’s, and your cheek cuddled
up to hers, to see a new baby come and take your place, without even
asking your leave;--to see papa, and grandpa, and grandma, and uncle,
and aunt, and cousins, and all the neighbors, so glad to see it, when
_your_ heart was almost broke about it. I know what it is to have
a great fat nurse (whom even mamma herself had to mind) lead you,
struggling, out of the room, and tell Sally to see that you didn’t
come into your own mamma’s room again all that day. I know what it is
to have that fat old nurse sit in mamma’s place at table, and cut up
your potato and meat all wrong;--to have her put squash on your plate,
when you _hate_ squash;--to have her forget (?) to give you a piece
of pie, and eat two pieces _herself_;--to have Sally cross, and Betty
cross, and everybody telling you to “get out of the way;”--to have your
doll’s leg get loose, and nobody there to hitch it on for you;--and
then, when it came night, to be put away in a chamber, all alone by
yourself to sleep, and have Sally tell you that “if you wasn’t good an
old black man would come and carry you off;”--and then to cuddle down
under the sheet, till you were half stifled, and tremble every time the
wind blew, as if you had an ague fit. Yes, and when, at last, mamma
came down stairs, I know how _long_ it took for you to like that new
baby;--how every time you wanted to sit in mamma’s lap, he’d be sure to
have the stomach-ache, or to want his breakfast; how he was _always_
wanting something, so that mamma couldn’t tell you pretty stories, or
build little blocks of houses for you, or make you reins to play horse
with; or do any of those nice little things, that she used to be always
doing for you.
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