‘Ah,’ said the farmer, gazing at the page doubtfully. ‘Bithey now do
only put it once—it be a matter o’ taste, I suppose. Well, now, I’ll put
my mark.’
He ground his pen slowly into the paper, horizontally and
perpendicularly, and remained gazing at it with a certain modest pride.
‘There, shut ’en up now, and write his name outside.’
Rosalie obeyed, and held out the document towards Isaac, but as he was
about to take it she drew it back, a deep flush overspreading her face.
After a moment’s hesitation, however, she again tendered it to him.
‘There—take it,’ she said, with a note of sharpness in her voice which
would have struck a more acute observer than Isaac; but he duly pocketed
it without noticing that anything was amiss.
Left to herself she sat for a moment or two in deep thought, her chin
propped upon her hands; then suddenly rising, rushed out into the yard.
‘Mr. Sharpe!’ she called. ‘Isaac!’
But the farmer’s broad back was already vanishing down the lane.
Evidently her voice failed to reach him as he did not turn his head.
Rosalie stood looking after him, without making further attempts to
attract his attention, and then slowly returned to the house. Why should
she call him back, after all—what need was there for her thus to disturb
herself? Could she help writing the letter exactly as he wished; and how
foolish were the qualms of conscience which the remembrance of certain
phrases in it evoked. It was his letter, not hers: it was he who had
insisted on stating that she wished Richard to return—she had never
authorised him to do so. If Richard did come back she could not be
blamed for it. If he did come back!
Again supporting her throbbing head with her hands, she tried to reason
with herself, but the turmoil in heart and brain for a time forbade any
consecutive train of ideas. During the long blank days which had passed
since Richard’s departure, and often in the course of the weary, restless
nights, this thought had constantly recurred to her with a never-failing
stab:—_He has gone_—_he will never come back_!
And now, if he did come back—if he came back even for a little while! If
she might just see him again, if it were only to be once or twice! At
the mere suggestion she was conscious of a lifting of the load which had
been crushing her. If he were made to know, through no fault of hers but
rather against her will, that she did wish him to return—she who had let
him go forth without a word to stay him—if he even guessed that she
longed to see him—oh, it would be sweet to think he knew, that he would
henceforth judge her less harshly, that he would realise how hard had
been her struggle!
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