The Countess leaned her head on her hand, and again remained silent.
She clearly wished to avoid any discussion on this subject, but the
young girl held steadily to her point.
'I have been wishing to speak to you about this for some time, mamma.
I cannot conceal from you that Edmund's behaviour makes me feel very
uneasy--frightens me, in fact. He is so different from what he used to
be; so uneven and variable in mood and temper; so strange even in his
manner towards me. He seems feverishly anxious that all the
preparations for the wedding should be pushed on as quickly as
possible, and, on the other hand, there are times when he shows
himself to be quite indifferent, and so totally unsympathetic that I
have fancied he may wish the marriage to be deferred.'
'Set your mind at rest, my child,' said the Countess, in a tone which
was intended to be soothing, but which yet rang with concentrated
bitterness. '_You_ have not lost his love. His tenderness towards you
has suffered no change. I think you must feel this yourself. Edmund
does appear rather excitable just now, I admit. He has been too gay,
too much into company of late--indeed, we have all of us been involved
in a perfect whirl of dissipation. Really, these incessant _réunions_,
these meets, these dinners and evening parties, have hardly left us
time to breathe. You yourself have been rather overtaxing your
strength in this way, and it is not surprising if your nerves are a
little tried by overmuch excitement.'
'I would willingly have refused half the invitations,' said Hedwig,
with some emotion; 'but Edmund insisted on our accepting them. We have
had no peace ever since September, but have been fairly driven from
one fête, from one visit to another; and when we contrive to stay at
home, meaning to rest a little, Edmund comes with some new proposal,
or brings some new visitor to the house. It seems really as though he
could not bear to be quiet an hour either here or at Brunneck, as
though anything like solitude were a positive torture to him.'
The Countess's lips quivered, and accidentally, as it were, she turned
her face away, replying, however, with perfect outward composure:
'Nonsense! Why indulge in such silly fancies? Edmund has always been
fond of society, and you yourself formerly took delight in constant
gaiety and pleasure. I should not have expected such a complaint from
you, of all people. What has happened to produce such an alteration in
your feelings?'
'I am anxious about Edmund,' confessed the young girl; 'and I see
plainly that he takes no pleasure in all this dissipation, though he
seems to seek it so eagerly. There is something so unnatural, so
spasmodic in his mirth, that it gives me quite a pang to witness it.
Do not try to deny this either to me or to yourself, mamma. It is
impossible you should not have remarked the change. I fear that in
secret it troubles you as much as it troubles myself.'
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account