'As I said to you yesterday, I was not in a mood, a frame of mind----'
'That I could see, and I make every allowance for the frame of mind,
knowing, as I do, its cause and origin.'
'Its cause and origin? What do you mean? What do you know?'
'The reason of your strange reception, of your almost hostile attitude
towards myself. This alone it is which brings me here. All
misunderstandings must be cleared up between us, Edmund. Why this
silence and concealment? Between true friends such as we are,
frankness is best.'
The young Count leaned heavily against the table near at hand. He made
no reply, but stood speechless and pale as death, staring at his
cousin, who continued calmly:
'You need not withhold any accusation you may have to make. I can face
it, can meet it without flinching. I love Hedwig, and am not ashamed
to own it to you, for I have honestly, loyally struggled against the
passion. When I saw it was not to be overcome, I went. Not a word on
the subject has passed between us. If yesterday I was so far carried
away as to allude to the state of my feelings, it was the first, it
will be the last time. The unexpected meeting for a moment robbed me
of my self-control, but it was only for a moment. I was myself again
directly. If this is guilt in your eyes, it is guilt I am not afraid
to confess, for I feel that in all points I can justify my conduct.'
This open, manly avowal had a most unlooked-for effect. Edmund
listened as in a dream. The horrible shock of surprise, which quite
paralyzed him at first, gradually passed away, but he evidently did
not yet grasp the full purport of the words addressed to him.
'You love Hedwig? You? No, it is impossible. I do not believe it.'
'Had you not found it out?' said Oswald, dismayed in his turn. 'Was it
not a feeling of jealousy which stood between us and estranged you
from me?'
Edmund did not heed the question. His glowing eyes rested with an
expression of terrible, unutterable suspense on Oswald's face, as he
panted forth, in breathless agitation:
'And Hedwig--does she return the feeling? Does she love you?'
'I have said that no word of explanation has passed between us.'
'Words are not needed. You know, must know, if she cares for you, or
not. That is felt in every glance, in every pulse. _I_ have felt, I
have known that she did not give me her whole wealth of love, that
something stood between us, dividing us. Were you that barrier? Speak;
I will have certainty, be the cost to me what it may.'
Oswald cast down his eyes.
'Hedwig will hold her promise sacred, as I do,' he replied, in a low
voice.
The answer was unequivocal, and to it there was no rejoinder. For the
next few minutes a terrible silence reigned. No sound was heard but
that of the young Count's short, quick breathing.
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