First Love: A Novel. Vol. 3 of 3Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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First Love: A Novel. Vol. 3 of 3
Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
Fiction
Julia was not to be found in the house; he therefore wandered into the
shrubbery, where, at the very paling gate at which they had parted on
such miserable terms the evening before, he perceived her, and Frances
with her. The latter, however, with a sportive air, disappeared at sight
of our hero, who, the next moment, stood before Julia. Scarcely had
one smile beamed on him, ere all that had almost forced the blissful
explanation of the morning from its first place in his mind, was
forgotten. This same smile, to Fitz-Ullin, who for so long had not had
even a smile, seemed all sufficient; for the lovers now walked on in
silence. By the time, however, that they had completed the round of the
wood-walk, as it is called, and re-entered the shrubbery at the further
end, they appeared not only to have recovered the use of speech, but to
have become quite confidential, for they now held between them an open
letter, which they seemed to be reading together. From an observation
which our hero made as they finished the perusal of the letter, it was
probably the one which he had in the morning promised to show Julia, and
which had cost both so much misery.
“That letter,” he said, “I cannot view without shuddering. It has so
long governed my fate, that I shall never learn to consider it what it
really is, a mere unimportant scrap of paper, blotted and rendered foul
by falsehood!” Every hour of their past lives was now reviewed; every
word, every look, adverted to; and one little spellword found, which, now
that it might be spoken, reconciled every contradiction, and solved every
mystery. The light, in short, of _First Love_, that brightest sunshine of
the heart, was now flung back on the long perspective of years gone by,
shedding its beams on the distant scene, and displaying, decked in their
natural and pleasing colours, all those greenest spots on memory’s waste,
which hopelessness had hitherto overshadowed, or treachery presented
through its own false medium.
Such recapitulations, however, to all but the parties interested, might
seem tedious; we shall not therefore go through all; yet, were they most
natural in those, whose every feeling had been for so long put to the
torture, by the cruelest misrepresentations of all that most concerned
their happiness. It was no wonder that they were not satisfied by merely
telling their understandings, with a sweeping clause, that all was just
the contrary of what it had been, or rather of what it had appeared to
be; they felt that they owed to themselves, as it were, the delight
of reversing each individual picture, and that hearts so long inured
to suffering, required to be soothed into a confidence in their own
felicity, by dwelling for a time on its details.
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