First Love: A Novel. Vol. 3 of 3Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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First Love: A Novel. Vol. 3 of 3
Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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“Only think,” he added, “of the Admiral at * * * *, having me tried by
a court martial for what he termed my insubordination; but he was a
man incapable, in fact, from long habit, of comprehending the simplest
elements of natural justice, and who could form no idea of any rule of
right, distinct from the rules of the service. So, I was to allow a
man who was mad, to flog an innocent man to death, shoot me, and fling
himself out of the cabin window, merely because he was my superior
officer!”
Lady Oswald, meanwhile, intent on the execution of her kindly project,
made some comments to her companion on his sadness, with pauses between,
hoping that he would volunteer in making her his confidant (for they
walked quite apart from Julia and Surrel). But Fitz-Ullin only feared
she must find it cold, or made some irrelevant remark; in short, did
not take her ladyship’s hints. She determined, therefore, to put the
question in a direct form; and as a preparatory remark, said, “I can see,
Fitz-Ullin, that you are seriously attached to Lady Julia L.”
Fitz-Ullin reddened to the very brows; but did not seem to have any
answer composed; for he remained silent, and her Ladyship continued: “You
have some delicacy, some prejudice, some secret reason, which prevents
your urging your own wishes. Let me know all, place the business in my
hands; and, I think, I shall be able to make you both (with a smile, and
a peculiar emphasis on the word ‘both’) happier than you are at present.”
“Lady Oswald,” replied Fitz-Ullin solemnly, and at the same time
colouring still more deeply, “whatever my feelings are, or rather, have
been, I neither intend to seek, nor wish to obtain, Lady Julia L.’s
acceptance of my hand.”
“Nor wish to obtain!” repeated Lady Oswald.
“As a mark, therefore,” continued Fitz-Ullin, “of your kind regard for
me, I must request that you will never again recur to this subject.”
“But why, my dear Fitz-Ullin, why not accept at least the assistance of
my judgment ere you condemn yourself to any uneasiness of mind; for,
happy you certainly are not.”
“Impossible!” said Fitz-Ullin, “I cannot! I must not! I have no right!”
“I certainly have no right to be officious,” said Lady Oswald; “but
I do confess, I wish to see you happy, and I do think you would not
be refused.” He smiled bitterly. “But if you really do not wish to be
accepted—why—I have done,” continued her Ladyship.
He quickened his pace: then slackened it; then, discovering that it was
quite too cold for the ladies, abruptly put an end to the walk.
Lady Oswald, after this conversation, thought it a necessary point of
delicacy, when in company with Julia, to recur no more to the subject of
her nephew.
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