Betrothal -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
She pushed back her hair. Her back ached. She felt very tired. She
wanted to get back to Gran’papa. She could hear the thin scrape of his
bow, and the fiddle’s stray uncertain notes as he tuned it. And then,
suddenly, swiftly, joyously, it broke into the thrice-familiar tune—
_Duncan Gray cam’ here to woo,
Ha, ha, the wooing o’t,
On blythe yule night when we were fou,
Ha, ha, the wooing o’t._
She knew the words by heart, in the unintelligent fashion in which one
knows the words of a song. But today they caught her ear, rang in her
mind to the staccato of the fiddle, significant, suggestive.
She had often wondered that it should be such a favourite tune with
Gran’papa. Today she knew why. The music, like strong sunlight shining
on a palimpsest, revealed beneath her mind’s modernity an older picture,
faint and faded, of a shadowy, gallant young Gran’papa, quarrelling
deliciously, a fiddle under his chin, with a slim girl who was called
Anne (like _Anne_, the ‘elegant little woman’ in _Persuasion_) and sat
at a pianoforte fingering out the accompaniment of an old song. She had
a sweet voice and wore a dress of lavender print, but her smooth golden
hair, as the impression faded again, was not golden at all, but red, a
dull, beautiful red, matching exactly, as Laura was aware, with the
beech leaves under which she sat as she bickered with Justin and made it
up again, one spring, not sixty springs, ago.
“Laura—you’ve shut your new skirt in the cupboard door! You never look.”
“Sorry, Auntie.”
“Well, as I was saying—I went down to the kitchen directly after
breakfast and I said——”
Gran’papa had been playing that day too. They could see him at his
window, sawing vigorously, from where they sat.... Justin had made one
of his comical remarks about it.... It seemed such ages ago, now—that
spring.... It had been the last of the happy times.... It was soon after
that, that things began to go wrong ... badly wrong.... Her thoughts
roamed achingly over all the trivial, tragical wrong that she and Justin
had done each other in the eternity that was not two years—not two
years.... Gran’papa had sixty years to retrace. Her thoughts hovered
over Gran’papa awhile and then back again to Justin. He was hard.... She
didn’t think she could be so cruel to her worst enemy as Justin was to
her.... Not a word.... Not a message.... And not to want a word!... Yet
he was essentially a kindly man. It was a queer lack of imagination, she
supposed.... She supposed he never thought of her at all.... It was
just—over—for him.... It never occurred to him that she loved him still
... that she lived in hell.... But it wasn’t that he wouldn’t have cared
if he could have understood, she told herself in sudden passionate
defence of him. He couldn’t help it—it was the way he was made....
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account