Yet Julian's feeling of
friendship towards this rouged scarecrow with the pathetic eyes and
the anxious hands did not diminish as he blushed for her, but rather
increased, fed, it seemed, by the discordant trifles in which her soul
moved as in a maze. He was so much in the thrall of thought that he had
become quite unconscious of the awkwardness of the brooding silence, when
he heard Valentine's voice say:
"Are you fond of art, Miss Bright?"
The question sounded as if addressed to some society woman at home in
Melbury Road. Addressed to Cuckoo it was entirely absurd, and Julian
glanced at Valentine to deprecate the gay sarcasm which he suspected.
But Valentine's face disarmed him, it was so gravely and serenely polite.
"Eh?" said Cuckoo.
"Are you fond of art? or do you prefer literature?"
"I don't know," she said nervously.
"Or perhaps music?"
"I like singing," she said. "And the organs."
"Do sing us something, Val," Julian said, to create a diversion.
But Valentine shook his head.
"Not to-day. I have got a cold in my throat."
"Well, then, play something."
But Valentine did not seem to hear the last request. He had turned again
to Cuckoo, who visibly shied away from him, and clattered the teacup and
saucer, which she held like one alarmed.
"Music is a great art," he said persuasively. "And appeals essentially to
one's emotions. I am certain now that you are emotional."
"I don't know, I'm sure," she said, with an effort at self-confidence.
"You feel strongly, whether it be love or hate."
This last remark seemed to reach her, even to stir her to something more
definite than mere _mauvaise honte_. She glanced quickly from Julian to
Valentine.
"Love and hate," she responded. "Yes, that's it; I could feel them both.
You're right there, my d--, I mean yes."
And again she looked from one young man to the other. She had put up
her veil, which was stretched in a bunched-up mass across her powdered
forehead, and Julian had an odd fancy that in the firelight he saw upon
her haggard young face the rapid and fleeting expression of the two
violently opposed emotions of which she spoke. Her face, turned upon
him, seemed to shine with a queer, almost with a ludicrous, vehemence
of yearning which might mean passion. This flashed into the sudden frown
of a young harridan as her eyes travelled on to Valentine. But the frown
died quickly, and she looked downcast, and sat biting her thin lips, and
crumbling a biscuit into the tiny blue and white china plate upon her
knee.
"And do you give way to your impulses?" Valentine continued, still very
gravely.
"What?"
"Do you express what you feel?"
A flash of childish cunning crept into her eyes and mouth, giving her the
aspect of a _gamin_.
"No; I ain't such a fool," she answered. "Men don't like to be told the
truth. Do they, now?"
The question went to Julian.
"Why not?" he asked
"Oh, they like to be fooled. If you don't fool them, they fool you."
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