Julian said the words with a sort of return to confidence and to greater
happiness. To look into the face of his friend set all his doubts at
rest. No man with eyes like that could ever fall into anything which was
really and radically evil. Valentine perhaps was playing with life as a
boy plays with a dog, making life jump up at him, dance round him, just
to see the strength and grace of the creature, its possibilities of quick
motion, its powers of varied movement. Where could be the harm of that?
And what Valentine could do safely he began to think he might do safely
too. He gave expression to his thought with his usual frankness.
"You mean you are beginning to play with life?" he said.
"That is it exactly. I am putting life through its paces. After all, no
man is worth his salt if he shuts himself up from that which is placed in
the world for him to see, to know, and perhaps--but only after he has
seen and known it--to reject. To do that is like living in the midst of
a number of people who may be either very agreeable or the reverse, and
declining ever to be introduced to them on the ground that they must all
be horrible and certain to do one an infinity of harm."
"Yes, yes, I see. Then you think that Cuckoo is jealous of me?--that that
was all she meant?"
Julian again returned to the old question. Valentine replied:
"I feel sure of it. Women are always governed by their hearts. So much so
that my last sentence is a truism, scarcely worthy the saying. Besides,
my dear Julian, what would it matter if she were not? What could the
attitude of such a woman on any subject under the sun matter to you?"
The words were not spoken without intentional sarcasm. They stung Julian
a little, but did not lead him, from any sense of false shame, to a
feeble concealment of his real feeling.
"It does seem absurd, I dare say," he said. "But she's--well, she's not
an ordinary woman, Val."
"Let us hope not."
"No; you don't understand. There's something strong about her. What she
says might really matter, I think, to a cleverer man than I. She knows
men, and then, Valentine, there's something else."
He stopped. There was a queer look of mystery in his face.
"Something else! What is it? What can there be?"
"I saw the flame as if it was burning in her eyes."
Valentine made an abrupt movement. It might have been caused by surprise,
annoyance, anger, or simply by the desire to fidget which overcomes every
one, not paralyzed, at some time or another. His action knocked over a
chair, and he stooped to pick it up and set it in its place before he
spoke. Then he said:
"The flame, you say! What on earth is your theory about this
extraordinary flame? You seem to attach a strange importance to it. Yet
it can only be the fire of a fancy, a jet from the imagination. Tell me,
have you any theory about it, honestly? and if so, what is it?"
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