And her soul cried to the darkness in which she imagined some vague power
to dwell; cried aloud for understanding. This silent cry was so intense
that she lay back upon the hard sofa, almost exhausted, and as she lay
there, something hot, like fire, seemed to make its nest in her heart,
and to flame there, and to be alive, as a flame is alive, and to speak to
her, but not aloud, as a flame speaks in the coals to the imagination of
the watcher by the hearth. In that moment the lady of the feathers felt
as if she were conscious of a new companion, a companion full of some
intensity towards her, some anxiety about her, anxious and brilliant as a
flame is, vital, keen, blazing, intense. Although she could not define
her sensation thus, that lack of analytical power could not deprive her
of it. She knew that her vision became clearer, that her mind became
brighter, that a light illumined her, that she was, for the moment,
greater than herself. But Valentine did not know it. He looked towards
the sofa and saw spread upon it a thin, painted, haggard young creature
curled into a position at once passionate, languid, and merely awkward,
with relentless, thickly tangled hair, staring eyes, and half-opened
lips, glowering in rouged stupidity and a coarseness of the gutter. He
was a philosopher, with a beauty of the stars and of snows, with a
refinement, white in its brilliance. She was an image of Regent Street,
a ghastly idol of the town; and he was telling her strange things that
she could never comprehend, in a jargon that was to her as Greek or as
Hebrew. It was too absurd. Yet he loved to tell her, and he could
scarcely tell why he loved it.
"Go on," said the lady of the feathers.
"This man," Valentine said, assuming a devout earnestness to trick her
more, and watching for the puzzled expression to grow and to deepen in
her eyes,--"this man had a holy nature, or I will say an unalterable will
to do only things pure, reserved, refined--things that could not lead his
body into difficulties, or his mind into quagmires. He was a saint
without a religion. That is a possibility, I assure you; for a will
can be amazingly independent. He had the peculiar grace that is said to
belong to angels, a definite repugnance to sin. I know you understand
me."
She nodded bluntly.
"I know--he couldn't go wrong, if it was ever so," she ejaculated.
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