He knit his brows rather moodily over this question of location. "I too
have wondered. But I imagine that it died; that it ceased to be. Divorced
from the body that was its home, degraded by dissatisfaction with itself,
of what use could it be to any one? Even if it still continues to be, it
is practically dead, for it can work neither harm nor good to any one,
and the thing that cannot be good or evil, or turn others towards the
one or the other, is dead. It is no more a will. It is no more an
influence. It is a heart without a pulse in it; in fact, it is nothing."
A sort of joy had leapt into his face as he dwelt on this idea of
nothingness, and he added:
"It is something like your soul, my lady of the feathers. Do you hear
me?"
"Yes. I hear!"
"But the will that ousted it gained in power by that triumph. Totally
self-satisfied, desirous of being only that which it is, having no enemy
of yearning disappointment with itself in its camp, it can do what will
never did before. It can lead captive the soul that was formerly the
captive of the soul that it drove away to die. Like an enemy it has
seized its opponent's camp, and the slave dwelling in that camp is now
its slave forever."
As Valentine spoke he seemed to become almost intoxicated with the
thoughts conjured up by his own words. His blue eyes blazed with a fury
of shining excitement. His white cheeks were suffused with blood.
"I have made myself, my will, a god!" he exclaimed passionately.
At the words the lady of the feathers moved suddenly forward on the sofa.
"What--_you_!" she said.
The last word was uttered with an intensity that could surely only
spring from something near akin to comprehension, if not from actual
comprehension itself. It certainly startled Valentine, or seemed to
startle him. His face showed an amazement like the amazement of
a man raving to an image of wood, to whom, abruptly, the wood speaks
with a tongue.
"What do you mean?" he said, and his voice faltered from its note of
triumph and of exultation.
Cuckoo resumed her former position.
"Only was you the will, or the man, or whatever it all is?" she replied
in the voice of one hopelessly muddled.
Valentine was reassured as to her stupidity.
"That has nothing to do with the story," he said.
"There was two of them, was there?" she persisted, but still with the
accent of a hopeless dullard.
"Oh yes. One will must always work upon another, or else there could be
no story worth the telling."
"Oh, I see; that's it."
Valentine again broke into laughter.
"You see, do you?" he said. "You see that, but do you see the truth of
what I told you before about the connection of the will with the body?
Do you see why you have no power now, can never have power again? Do you
understand that the wreck of your body inevitably causes the wreck of
your will, so that it really dies and ceases, because it can no more
influence others? Do you understand that? I'll make you understand it
now. Come here."
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