"I think I'll tell you exactly what it was," she said. "You may have
read of me. Long ago, some years at least, I was obliged to take action
against my husband, a Mr. Wilson, who afterwards assumed the name of
Marr. I charged him with cruelty, won my case, and obtained a judicial
separation."
Then Dr. Levillier knew that he looked on the former wife of the strange,
cruel, dead man, whose influence had entered into the lives of his two
friends.
"You may have heard of my case?" Mrs. Wilson said.
"Certainly I have."
"It was bad, even from a newspaper point of view, I believe. People
congratulated me on getting rid of a brute, and thought I was all right
and ought to be happy. But the newspapers and the world never knew what
I had gone through, the real horrors, before I insisted on release. You
started when I called my husband a brute just now, Dr. Levillier; I
noticed it. The phrase hurt you, coming from any wife about any husband.
I know why, a boy once told me that his mother was always drunk. He hurt
me then into hating him for the rest of my days. But I called a stranger
a brute, not the man I loved and married, not the man I loved after I
married him. Dr. Levillier, do you believe in possessions?"
She had been gradually getting excited while she spoke, and, on the last
words, she leaned forward in her chair and struck her hand down in her
lap.
"Do you mean possession by the devil?" said the doctor, very quietly,
opposing a strong calm to her intensity.
"Yes. I do. My experience obliges me to. I knew, for a year before I
married him, I married, I lived for two years after I married him, with
a man who was my conception of what a man should be, strong, gentle,
tender, brave, a hero to me. I got rid of a devil, after I had endured
two years of torture at his hands. It is no use to tell me those two
distinct men I knew were one and the same man. My soul, my heart, declare
that it's a lie. There were such differences. My husband loved music;
this man hated it; yet had the power to use it as a means of tormenting
me. But I needn't dwell on the evidences of change. Suffice it to say
that the thing that crushed me, the thing that has brought me down into
the dust where I am, dust of cowardice, and weakness, and impotence to
do or to be anything, was the horror of awakening to a knowledge of that
change, of having to live as wife with this devil, whom I knew not, who
was a stranger to me. Only the features were my husband's, nothing else.
I got rid of a stranger. The man found dead in the Euston Road was a
stranger whom I hated, nothing more to me than that."
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