eagerly responsive, as dogs are, to emotions along whose verges they
tread with the soft feet of sympathy, the sweeter for the ignorance
that paints their generosity in such tender colours. But Jessie was
_bouleversée_ by this passionate, eager Cuckoo; this shadow on fire, who
was alive almost ere London was alive, instead of half dead until half
London slept. The shadow on fire snatched her out of her sleep, tossed
her in air, spoke to her with a voice that thrilled her to quick barking
excitement, played with her till the little dog's flux of emotions
threatened to consummate in a canine apoplexy, and Mrs. Brigg battered at
the door with a shrill, "Keep that beast quiet, can't yer?" All this was
Cuckoo fighting; battle in the bedclothes, battle with soap and water,
curling-pins, corset, shoes. Each little act was performed with an energy
it did not demand. The sponge was squeezed dry like a live thing being
strangled; the toothbrush played as Maxim guns on an enemy; buttons went
into button-holes with a manner of ramrods going into muskets; hooks met
eyes as one army meets another. Battle in all that morning's common
tasks, setting them high, dressing them with chivalry and strong
endeavour. Cuckoo went into her sitting-room swiftly, with glowing cheeks
and flaming eyes, as one ardently expectant. And then--? Mrs. Brigg had
lit the fire, but it had spluttered out into a mass of blackened, ghostly
paper and skeleton sticks. A little more battle in the relighting of it.
But then--the blank day of the girl of the streets. Cuckoo sat down,
watched the growing fire, and wondered what she had expected. She was
conscious that she had expected something, and something not small. Her
mood had demanded it. But our moods are often like disappointed brigands,
who, having waylaid a pauper, demand with levelled pistols that which the
pauper has so vainly prayed for all his life. Moods come from within.
They are not evoked to dance valses with suitable partners from without.
And so Cuckoo's strong excitement and energy found nothing to dance with.
She sat there growing gradually less alive, and wondering why she had
hastened to get up; why she was fully dressed instead of wrapped in the
usual staring pink dressing-gown with the chiffon cascades down the
front. Mornings were of no use to her--never had been. God might as well
never have included them in the scheme of His days, so far as she was
concerned. But this morning she had thought, had felt--it seemed
impossible that she should feel so unusual and that nothing should
happen. She was ready, but Fate was in bed and asleep. That was really
the gist of the feeling that came over her. She thought of Dr. Levillier,
the man who had set a torch at last to her nature and fired it with a new
ardour. He was at his work in the morning, seeing, speaking to, that
passing line of strangers, who walked on forever through his life. His
energies were employed. Perhaps he had forgotten Cuckoo and her empty
mornings.
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