"So that Cresswell knew what his will had been able to do in the
direction of lifting Julian high up, almost above his nature. Well, then
followed certain foolish practices which I need not describe. Cresswell
and Julian joined in a certain trickery, often practised by people who
call themselves spiritualists and occultists. It certainly had an effect
upon them at the time, and I advised them earnestly to drop it. They
disregarded my advice, and the result was that Mr. Cresswell fell into
an extraordinary condition of body. He fell into a trance, became as if
he were dead, and remained so for some hours on a certain night. I was
called in to him, and actually thought that he was dead. But he revived.
Now, I believe that though he seemed to recover, and did recover in
body, he never recovered from that insensibility in mind. I believe he
went into that sleep sane and came out of it mad, and that he remains
mad to this moment. Certainly, ever since then he has been an altered
man, the man you know, not at all the man he used to be. Since that
night he, who used to be almost unconscious of the wonder of his own
will, has become intensely self-conscious, and engrossed with it, and
has wished to make it obey him and perform miracles. And what is the
special miracle to which he is devoting himself at this moment, as you
have observed? Just this: the ruin of the thing he originally saved. It
is like this," he said, noting that Cuckoo was becoming puzzled and
confused, "Cresswell, by his influence, made Julian loathe sin. Coming
out of this trance, as I believe, a madman, he seeks to make his will
do something extraordinary. What shall he make it do? His eyes fall on
Julian, who is always with him, as you know. And he resolves to make
Julian love what he has taught him to loathe--sin, vice, degradation of
every kind. So he sets to work with all the cunning of a diseased mind,
and hour by hour, day by day, he works for this horrible end. At first he
is quiet and careful. But at last he becomes almost intoxicated as he
sees his own success. And he allows himself to be led into outbreaks of
triumph. One of those outbreaks you yourself seem to have witnessed. I
have witnessed another--on the night I dined alone with Cresswell, when
he killed the dog, Rip, and threw him out into the snow. Cresswell is
intoxicated with the mental intoxication of mania, at the degradation
into which his will has forced Julian, who had learnt to love him, to
think that everything he did must be right. And this intoxication is
leading him to excesses. It is my firm belief that he intends to drag
Julian down into intolerable abysses of sin, to plunge him into utter
ruin, to bring him perhaps to prison, and to death."
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