It was not so. Cuckoo was sitting alone in the little room of the
Marylebone Road looking a new spectre in the face, the spectre of
hunger, only shadowy as yet, scarcely defined, scarcely visible. And
the lady of the feathers wondered, as she gazed, if she and the spectre
must become better acquainted, clasp hands, kiss lips, be day-fellows
and night-fellows.
* * * * *
"I am going to write to Cuckoo," Julian said a day later. "What shall I
say?"
Valentine hesitated.
"What have you thought of saying?" he asked.
"Oh, I don't know. First one thing, then another. Good-bye among the
number. That's what you wish me to say, Val, isn't it?"
He spoke in a listless voice, monotonous in inflection and lifeless
in timbre. The dominion of Valentine over him since the supper at the
Savoy had increased, consolidating itself into an undoubted tyranny,
which Julian accepted, carelessly, thoughtlessly, a prey to the internal
degradation of his mind. Once he had only been nobly susceptible, a fine
power. Now he was drearily weak, an ungracious disability. But with his
weakness came, as is usual, a certain lassitude which even resembled
despair, an indifference peculiar to the slave, how opposed to the
indifference peculiar to the autocrat. Valentine recognized in the voice
the badge of serfdom, even more than in the question, and he smiled with
a cold triumph. He had intended telling Julian now, once for all, to
break with the lady of the feathers, of whom even yet he stood in vague
fear. But the question, the voice of Julian, gave him pause, slid into
his soul a new and bizarre desire, child of the strange intoxication of
power which was beginning to grip him, and which the doctor had remarked.
If Julian broke with Cuckoo, repulsed her forever into the long street
that was her pent and degraded world, would not the sharp salt of
Valentine's triumph be taken from him? Would not the wheels of his
Juggernaut car fail to do their office in his sight--there was the
point!--upon a precious victim? The lady of the feathers thus
deliberately abandoned by Julian would suffer perhaps almost to the
limit of her capability of pain, but Valentine would have lost sight
of her in the dark, and though he would have conquered that spectral
opposition which she had whimsically offered to him--he laughed to
himself now, thinking of his fear of it--he would not see that greatest
vision, the flight of his enemy. These thoughts flashed through his mind,
moving him to an answer that astonished Julian.
"Good-bye!" he said. "Why should I wish that?"
"You said the other day at the Savoy that she hated you; that you and she
must have a battle unless I chose between you."
"I was laughing."
The lifelessness left Julian's voice as he exclaimed:
"Valentine! But you were--"
"Sober, and you were not. Can you deny it?"
Julian was silent.
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