and the woman who could lie down in the mud and let the world see her
there, and the woman who had sold her soul for food, and a thin woman,
such a thin, almost transparent, wistful creature, who was facing the
thing men call with bated breath--starvation. She sang too, but, of all
these women, she was the only one the doctor could not rightly hear nor
rightly see. For she, as yet, was remote, far down the level line of that
choir, hardly perhaps one with it yet, faint of voice, dim of outline.
The doctor heard the choir sing, and then--
His mind, as the time of the darkness grew longer, continued to grow
more and more clear, until he felt thoroughly, and was able to try to
analyze its unnatural condition. Scales had fallen from him and from
his companions for him. Their bodies were clothed, their souls, their
flames, seemed stripped bare and offered to him naked. He had examined
them with this greedy, yet sane, attention and curiosity. He had led them
into the empty room and stayed with them there. He had heard the Litany
of the Glory of Valentine, and the suffocation, and the anger, and the
stirring beneath his yoke of Julian. He had heard the many women sing in
the heart of the lady of the feathers. But all this seemed leading him
forward and onward, step by step, as to a threshold beyond which was some
greater, some more importunate, thing. And he took the last step with
Cuckoo. It was as if he was handed on from one room to another, as is the
fashion in the palace of a great king, his name being called in each, and
sent before, like a voice sent on the wind, and as if Cuckoo was in the
last anteroom that gave upon the audience-chamber. Now he had arrived,
and suddenly a great wave of mysterious expectation ran over him and
filled the cup of his soul. He felt that he stood still and waited. The
sense of Cuckoo, of all she felt and thought in the darkness, gradually
dropped away from him, like leaves from a tree, till every branch was
leafless. And this autumnal ravishment, like the ravishment of nature,
was but a preparation surely for a future spring.
The doctor waited outside that door, beyond which, perhaps, spring
blossomed and sang. He lost at last all sense of being in a company of
people, and felt as one feels who is entirely alone, expectant, calm,
ready. And still only the darkness and the silence. Nothing more at
first. But presently what seemed to him a marvel.
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