her mind that money and Julian should never be linked together in her
relations with him, stuck to secrecy on this subject with her normal dull
pertinacity. So matters move slowly towards a deadlock. The lady of the
feathers did not neglect the pawnshop. Her few trinkets went there very
soon. Then things that were not trinkets, that green evening dress, for
instance, the imitation lace, and one day a sale took place. Cuckoo
disposed, for an absurd sum, of her title deed, the headgear that had
given birth to her nickname. She was no longer the lady of the feathers.
The hat that had seen so much of her life reposed upon the head of
virtue, and knew Piccadilly no more. But Julian's present remained with
her, and indeed came into every-day use. And still Jessie sported her
yellow riband. Later there came a terrible time, when the eyes of
Cuckoo--appraising everything on which they looked--fell with that
fateful expression, not merely upon Jessie's yellow riband, but upon
Jessie herself. But that time was not quite yet.
While Cuckoo endured this fate, Dr. Levillier was in a perplexity of
another kind. The first round of that battle had ended in apparent
decisive defeat of Valentine's accusers. During the evening the fortunes
of war had certainly wavered to the doctor's side. Julian had displayed
sudden strong signs of an awakening; but the sitting had thrown him back
into his dream, had pushed him more firmly beneath the yoke of his
master. The doctor did not understand why, although he recognized the
fact; he could not divine the exact effect that disappointment would have
upon sudden suspicious eagerness. Julian had been waked to wonder, to
observe Valentine for an instant with new eyes, to look the mystery of
the great change in him in the face, and know it as a mystery. Yes, he
had even thought of Valentine as a stranger, and said to himself, "Where,
then, is my friend?" The new Valentine had risen out of the ashes of
sleep. Julian pressed forward the sitting as a means, the only one, of
searching among these ashes. In the old days each sitting had quickened
his senses into a strange life, as the last sitting quickened the senses
of the doctor. But to Julian this last sitting brought nothing but
disappointment; the thing which had been alive was dead, and so the
sudden hope which had come with the new wonder died too. He supposed
that he had been the prey of an absurd fancy created by the idle words
of the doctor, or by an idiotic movement of his mind, which had cried
to him on a sudden: "If the Valentine you love and revere is really gone
away, what are you worshipping now?" Now, in his heavy disappointment he
thought of this cry as a mad exclamation, and he sought to drown all
memory of it, and every memory in fresh vices, and in his fatal habit
of absinthe-drinking. He lay down under the yoke beneath which he had
previously wept, and so succeeded in going still lower. So that night
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