Bildungsromans; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; First loves -- Fiction; Ireland -- Fiction
I complied with an extremely bad grace. It seemed to me I was always
chosen for these messages. If Gerald didn’t like to come himself, why
couldn’t he be left behind? I knew the others wouldn’t even wait for
us; in fact, when I turned round, they had already begun to walk on
slowly.
I found Gerald busy with his music, and not looking in the least as if
he intended to be anything else but busy with it all the afternoon.
“The others are waiting,” I said, with sulky abruptness. “Are you
ready?”
He raised his head and his brown eyes rested on mine curiously. “They
won’t wait very long,” he replied. “Do you really want to climb that
ridiculous mountain?”
I looked down sullenly. “Why not? We arranged to do so, didn’t we? Owen
wants to.”
“Let them go alone, then. They’ve begun to study botany. Katherine was
examining things through a little lens all yesterday evening.”
His drawling irony made me furious. “We must go,” I said, shortly. I
knew well enough that he knew what was passing in my mind, and that I
had been fighting against it for the last fortnight. He was the only
one, I fondly imagined, who _did_ know, and I had begun to think that
the spectacle of my jealousy was pleasing to him, and that he had his
own delicate ways of encouraging it. He did not like Owen, yet, for
some reason I could not fathom, he appeared to regard favourably his
friendship with Katherine. That friendship had made astonishing strides
in the past week or two. When we went anywhere together now, it was
invariably Owen who was Katherine’s escort. Things seemed to arrange
themselves naturally in that way, and this afternoon was no exception.
It was not till I told him I would follow the others, and was leaving
the room, that Gerald made up his mind to accompany me, and even then,
about a quarter way up Slieve Donard, he announced that he had gone
far enough and would wait here till they came down. Owen and Katherine
were not in sight, for Gerald had made the ascent at the pace of the
pilgrims in “Tannhäuser,” and I had had to keep with him. He stretched
himself full length on the grass, and, as if it were an amusing
question, asked me what I proposed doing. I did not know myself whether
to wait with him here or to finish the climb. I stood hesitating, with
a face like a thunder-cloud.
“I suppose they’re at the top by this time,” said Gerald, casually, and
his supposition decided me.
I climbed up alone and full of bitter thoughts. Presently I saw
Owen and Katherine far above me, but they never once looked back. I
remembered that day, long ago it now seemed when Katherine and I had
climbed the hill from the Bloody Bridge Valley, and how I had helped
her over rough places, as I supposed Owen was helping her now, and
walked hand in hand with her.
When I reached the summit I saw them standing together under the lee
of a huge gray rock, gazing seaward. They heard my approach and turned
round.
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