Bildungsromans; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; First loves -- Fiction; Ireland -- Fiction
When I think now of those who were in charge of my education, upon my
word I cannot help but be filled with wonder. What did they teach me?
What did I ever get from them that I could not have got, with less
trouble, for myself? Never once did any of my masters show the faintest
interest in me, or make even the most perfunctory attempt to get to
know me, to get to know what I was capable of, if I had any definite
tastes, if I were good or bad, moral or immoral, intelligent or a fool.
What they did instead was to ask me a couple of questions from a book,
and, if I failed to answer either of these satisfactorily, keep me in
to sit for twenty minutes with my lesson-book open on the desk before
me and my thoughts miles away. Of my masters only one, Mr. Johnson, had
any distinction, and he, unfortunately, was a mathematician. He had
written a “Euclid” so perfect in its expression that he had managed to
get a kind of æsthetic charm into the dry bones of geometry. He was an
Englishman, but was slightly Jewish in type. He wore a long, flowing
beard and moustache, like an early northern chief, and he had small,
sleepy, gray eyes, which during school hours were usually closed. Most
of his time he passed, either in reverie or slumber, in his chair
on a daïs at the end of the room; but when aroused he had, for the
unmathematical, a richly terrifying voice, and a disheartening manner
of slashing down a long black cane on the desk, within a few inches of
your nose. His classes were models of order. Never a faintest sound. In
dead silence you played your game of noughts and crosses, or did your
Latin composition, or wrote out cricket teams――but you never spoke,
and rarely moved. Of all those whose business it was to mould my mind
his figure remains the least spoiled by time. I remember the shock I
received when, some years after I left school, I came upon Dr. Melling,
the head English master, in the Campo Santo at Pisa, sucking an orange,
and dressed in garments that Moses or Ikey would have bid for but
languidly. When I spoke to him he seemed so narrow, so unimaginative,
so unintelligent, that I felt half-ashamed, as one might who has
learned by accident a secret he ought never to have known. Even in
stature he was curiously shrunken, though he neither stooped nor showed
signs of decrepitude or age. But Johnson I can see now, as I saw him so
often then, coming up the path between the two front cricket-fields,
a large black bag in his hand, which one had been told contained his
lunch. I can see him leaning back in his chair, his eyes closed, like
one of those beautiful owls that ignore from their cage in the Zoo the
staring stranger, his beard spread out over his waistcoat, his hands
folded on his stomach. Johnson was a gentleman, and, though he knew
nothing of, and cared little for, boys, if chance brought him into
temporary relation with one, even a very small and idle one, he took it
for granted that he was a gentleman too, and in his deep, slow, musical
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