"To be sure, of course, everything must come right again," he muttered;
and the perspiration stood on his forehead under his chestnut curls.
XIV.
But an hour later, alone in his room that evening, he walked to and fro
with such seething agitation as set every nerve quivering in his slight
frame, as a storm tosses a rowing-boat. His soft features were distorted
to a hideous expression of malignancy, with rage at his own impotence,
and he strode up and down, up and down, like a beast in a cage,
clenching his fists. Then it was for this that he had elaborated his
tastes, had sharpened and polished all his natural gifts, and had
directed all the powers of his mind like a battery charged with some
mysterious fluid, on the secrets of a girl's love and life! A single
letter, a few pages of tender words, and the whole work would be
destroyed! For now, in his wrath, he suddenly saw and prided himself on
the fact; he saw that he--very certainly he--had guided events to sever
Frank and Eva. How could he even for a moment have doubted it?
And it was all to come to nought! Never, never! No, a thousand times,
no! Awful, and infinitely far as the horizon, the perspective of life
yawned before him--the dead level of poverty, the barren desert in which
he must pine and perish of hunger. And in his horror of treading that
wilderness every sinew of his lax resolve seemed strained to the verge
of snapping.
He must take steps forthwith. An idea flashed through his brain like the
zigzag of forked lightning. Yes; that was his only course; the simplest
and most obvious means, a mere stroke of villany--as conventionality
would term it.... No need here for any elaborate psychological _pros_
and _cons_; they were never of any use, they got entangled in their own
complications. Simply a theatrical _coup_.
He took his hat and crept quietly out of the house, with a sneer of
contempt, of scorn for himself, that he should have fallen so low. It
was half-past ten. He hailed a cab, and laughed to hear the melodramatic
sound of his own voice as he gave the driver Sir Archibald's
address--the voice of a stage traitor. Then he shrank into a corner of
the vehicle, his shoulders up to his ears, his eyes half closed and
gazing out through the dim mystery of the night. Deadly melancholy
lurked at the bottom of his soul.
He got out near Sir Archibald's house, walked a few yards to the door,
and rang--and the minutes he waited in the darkness before the closed
house seemed an eternity of intolerable misery, of horror, aversion,
loathing of himself. His lips were pinched into a grimace of disgust.
A man-servant opened the door with a look of surprise at the belated
visitor, a surprise which gave way to an impertinent stare when he saw
that Van Maeren was alone, without Westhove. He bowed with insolent
irony, and held the door wide open with exaggerated servility, for
Bertie to enter.
"I must speak with you at once," said Bertie, coolly, "at once and
alone."
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