"They never reached us. Our servant William seems to have had some
interest in keeping them back."
"Some interest?" repeated Frank, dully, bewildered. "Why?"
"That I do not know," replied Eva. "All I know is this: our maid
Kate--you remember her--came crying one day to tell me that she could
not stay any longer, for she was afraid of William, who had declared
that he would murder her. I inquired what had happened; and then she
told me that she had once been just about to bring up a letter to
Papa--in your handwriting. She knew your writing. William had come
behind her when she was close to the door, and had snatched it from her,
saying that he would carry it in; but instead of doing so he had put
the letter into his pocket. She had asked him what he meant by it; then
they had a violent quarrel, and ever since she had been afraid of the
man. She had wanted to tell me a long time ago, but dared not for fear
of William. We questioned William, who was rough and sulky, and
considered himself offended by our doubts of his honesty. Papa had his
room searched to see if he had stolen any more letters or other things.
Nothing, however, was to be found, neither stolen articles nor letters.
Not even the letter to Papa, which seems to have been the last of the
three you wrote."
"It was," said Frank.
"Of course Papa dismissed the man. And--oh, what was it I wanted to tell
you?--I cannot remember.--So you wrote actually three times?"
"Indeed I did; three times."
"And what did you say?" she asked, with a sob in her throat.
"I asked you to forgive me, and whether--whether all could not be the
same again. I confessed that I had been wrong--"
"But you were not."
"Perhaps not. I cannot tell now. I felt it so then. I waited and waited
for a word from you or your father. And none came."
"No, none!" she sighed. "And then?"
"What could I have done?"
"Why did you not come yourself? Oh! why did you never come near us?" she
wailed reproachfully.
He was silent for a minute, collecting his thoughts; he could not
remember it all.
"Tell me, Frank?" she said softly. "Why did you not come, yourself?"
"I cannot remember exactly," he said, dully.
"Then you did think of it?"
"Yes, certainly," said he.
"Then how was it that you never came?"
Frank suddenly broke down; he gulped down his tears with difficulty, a
gulp of anguish.
"Because I was heart-broken, because I was so wretched, so unspeakably
wretched. I had always taken rather cynical views of women, and love,
and so forth; and then when I met you it was all so new, so fresh to me,
I felt myself a boy again; I was in love with you, not only for your
beauty but for everything you said and did; for being what you are,
always so calm and sweet. Good God! I adored you, Eva.--Then there was
that change: that doubt, that dreadful time. I cannot remember it all
now; and I felt so forlorn and broken-hearted. I could have died then,
Eva, Eva!"
"You were so miserable? And you did not come to me?"
"No."
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