American fiction -- 19th century; Dime novels; Popular literature
“And you went and did it, you little goose,” Beatrice said, laughing
until the tears ran down her cheeks; but when she saw how distressed
Rosamond was she controlled her merriment, and listened while Rossie
went on:
“Yes, I was a simpleton not to know any better, but I never meant him to
marry me as he would marry you or some one he loved; that had nothing to
do with it at all. And I was going right away from Forrest House to take
care of myself. I knew I could find something to do, as nurse, or
waitress, or ladies’ maid, if nothing more; and I meant to go just as
soon as the ceremony was over and leave him all the money, and never,
never come back to be in the way.”
“And you told him this, and what did he say?” Beatrice asked, her mirth
all swept away before the great unselfishness of this simple-hearted
girl, who went on:
“I did not tell him all that at first. I asked him to marry me, just as
I would have asked him to give me a glass of water, and with as little
thought of shame, but the shame came afterward when I saw what I had
done. I can’t explain how it came,—the new sense of things,—I think he
looked it into me, and I felt in an instant as if I had been blind and
was suddenly restored to sight. It was as if I had been walking
unclothed in my sleep, fearlessly, shamelessly, because asleep, and had
suddenly been roused to consciousness and saw a crowd of people staring
and jeering at me. Oh, it was so awful! and I felt like tearing my hair
and shrieking aloud, and I said so many things to make him believe I did
not mean it for love or to live with him.”
“And what did he say to the offer? Did he accept or refuse?” Beatrice
asked, and Rosamond replied:
“I do not think he did either. I was so ashamed when it came to me, and
talked so fast to make him know that I would not marry him for a
thousand times the money, and did not love him, and never could.”
“I’ll venture to say he was not especially delighted with such
assertions; men are not generally,” Beatrice said, laughingly, but
Rosamond did not comprehend her meaning, or if she did, she did not pay
any heed to it, but went rapidly on with her story, growing more and
more excited as she talked, and finishing with a passionate burst of
tears, which awakened all Bee’s sympathy, and made her try to comfort
the sobbing girl, who seemed so bowed down with shame and remorse.
Her head was aching dreadfully, and there began to steal over her such a
faint, sick feeling, that she offered no remonstrance when Bee proposed
that she spend the night at Elm Park, and sent word to that effect to
the Forrest House.
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