American fiction -- 19th century; Dime novels; Popular literature
“You must be good,” she said, “or you would never have left your
beautiful home and your friends and attached yourself to me, who am only
a drag upon you. But sometime in the future you will be rewarded; and,
forgive me, Miss Belknap, if I speak out plain, now, like one who stands
close down to the river of death, and, looking back, can see what
probably will be. I do not know how you feel toward Theo, but of this I
am sure, he has never taken another into the place you once filled, and
at a suitable time after I am gone he will repeat the words he said to
you years ago, and if he does, don’t send him away a second time. He is
nearer to your standard now than he was then. He is growing all the time
in the estimation of his fellow-men. They are going to make him a D. D.,
and the parish of which he is pastor is one of the best and most highly
cultivated in Boston. And you will go there, I hope, and be a mother to
my children, and bring them up like you, for that will please Theo
better than my homely ways. Trix is like you now, and Bunchie will
learn, though she is slower to imitate. You will be happy with Theo,—and
I am glad for him and the children; but you will not let them forget me
quite, but will tell them sometimes of their mother, who loved them so
much. I hoped to see Theo once more before I died, but something tells
me he will not be here in time; that when he comes I shall be dead. So
you will ask him to forget the many times I worried and fretted him with
my petty cares and troubles. Tell him that Mollie puts her arms around
his neck and lays her poor head, which will never ache again, against
his good, kind heart, and so bids him good-by, and goes away alone into
the brightness beyond, for it is all bright and peaceful; and just over
the river I am crossing I seem to see the distant towers of ‘Jerusalem
the Golden’ gleaming in the heavenly sunshine, which lies so warm upon
the everlasting hills. And my babies are there waiting and watching for
me. Sing, can’t you, ‘Will some one be at the beautiful gate, waiting
and watching for me?’”
There was too heavy a sorrow in Beatrice’s heart, and her voice was too
full of tears for her to sing to the dying woman, who clung so closely
to her. But what _she_ could not do, little Trixey did for her. She had
entered the room unobserved, followed by Bunchie, whose hands were full
of the sweet wild-flowers they had gathered and brought to their mother,
who was past caring for such things now. The yellow jessamine and wild
honeysuckle lay unheeded upon her pillow, but at the sound of her
children’s voices a spasm of intense pain passed for a moment over her
face, and was succeeded by a smile of peace as she whispered again:
“Somebody sing of the beautiful gate,” and instantly Trixey’s clear
voice rang through the room, mingled with little Bunchie’s lisping,
broken notes, as she, too, struck in and sang:
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