American fiction -- 19th century; Dime novels; Popular literature
Rosamond’s life as a governess had been a very happy one, but still
there was always present with her a consciousness of pain and loss,—a
keen regret and intense longing for the “might have been,” and a great
pity for Everard, whose lot she knew was so much harder to bear than her
own; for with him the burden was growing heavier, and the chain ever
lengthening, which bound him to his fate. He had written to her
frequently during the past year, friendly, brotherly letters, such as
Josephine might have read without just cause of complaint. But he had
given way once, and in a moment when his sky was very dark, had poured
out his soul in passionate, burning words, telling how dreary life was
to him without her, and asking if she could not bring herself to think
that the divorce he could so easily get was valid, and would free him
from the hateful tie which bound him?
And Rosamond had answered him, “Only God can free you from the bond,”
and had said he must never write like that to her again if he wished her
to answer him; and so the last hope was crushed, and Everard took up his
load once more and tried to bear it more manfully, and by a closer
attention to his practice to forget the bliss which might have been his
had he not rashly thrown the chance away. Rossie had said to him in her
letter, “Pray, Everard, as I do; pray often, that you may learn to think
of me as only your sister, the little Rossie who amused you and whom you
liked to tease.”
But Everard did not pray. On the contrary, he was in a most resentful
and rebellious frame of mind, and blamed the Providence which had
permitted him to go so far astray. It was well enough for women to pray,
and those who had never been tried and tempted as he had been, but for
himself, he saw no justice in God’s dealings with him, and he could not
ask to be content with what he loathed from his very soul, he wrote in
reply to Rossie, who, while he grew harder and more reckless, was
rapidly developing into a character sweeter and lovelier than anything
Everard had known. And the new life and principle within her showed
itself upon her face, which was like the face of Murillo’s sweetest
Madonna, where the earthly love blends so harmoniously with the divine,
and gives a glorious and saintly expression to the lovely countenance.
But Rossie’s health had suffered from this constant sense of pain and
loss. The bright color was gone from her cheeks save as it came and went
with fatigue or excitement, and there was about her a frail, delicate
look, wholly unlike the child Rossie, who used to be so full of life and
vigor in the old happy days at the Forrest House. Still, she complained
of nothing except that she was always tired, but this was, in Mrs.
Andrews’ mind, a sufficiently alarming symptom, and it was as much on
Rossie’s account as on her own that she planned the trip to Florida,
where she hoped the warm sunlight would bring strength again to the girl
whom she loved almost as a daughter.
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