That night in his little room, he looked from his window at the sea
of black roofs that stretched into the sky and found in their ultimate
distance the wonderful sweep of stars that domed them; a great moon,
full-rounded, dull gold, staring like a huge eye, above them. His heart
was full. A God there must be somewhere to have given him all this
splendour--a splendour surely for him to work upon. He felt as a
craftsman feels, when some new and wonderful tools have been given to
him; as a woman feels the child in her womb, stirring mysteriously,
moving her to deep and glad thankfulness, so now, with the night wind
blowing about him, and all London lying, dark and motionless, below him,
he felt the first stirring of his power. This was his to work with,
this was his to praise and glorify and make beautiful--now crude and
formless--a seed dark and without form or colour--one day to make one
more flower in that garden that God has given his servants to work in.
He did not, at this instant, doubt that some God was there, crying to
him, and that he must answer. Of that moon, of those stars, of that
mighty city, he would make one little stone that might be added to that
Eternal Temple of Beauty....
He turned from his window and thought of other things. He thought of his
father and Scaw House, of the windy day when his mother was buried, of
Mr. Zanti and Stephen's letter, of Herr Gottfried and his blue slippers,
of this house and its people, of the friendly girl and her grey eyes ...
finally, for a little, of himself--of his temper and his ambitions and
his selfishness. Here, indeed, suddenly jumping out at him, was the
truth.
He felt, as he got into bed, that he would have to change a great deal
if he were to write that great book that he thought of: “Little Peter
Westcott,” London seemed to say, “there's lots to be done to you first
before you're worth anything ... I'll batter at you.”
Well, let it, he thought, sleepily. There was nothing that he would like
better. He tumbled into sleep, with London after him, and Fame in front
of him, and a soft and resonant murmur, as of a slumbering giant, rising
to his open window.
BOOK II -- THE BOOKSHOP
CHAPTER I
“REUBEN HALLARD”
I
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