His name was Rondel and Peter saw him, for a moment, as the crowds
parted, standing, with a tall, grim, elderly woman, apparently his
mother, beside him. He was looking frightened and embarrassed and stood
up straight against the wall as though afraid lest some one should come
and snatch him away.
But Peter saw the world in a dream. He walked about, with Clare beside
him, and talked to many people; then she was stopped by some one whom
she knew and he went on alone. Now there had come back to him the old
terror. If he went back, after this was over, and Clare was still angry
with him, he did not know what he would do. He was afraid....
He smiled, talked, laughed and, in his chest, there was a sharp acute
pain like a knife. He had still with him that feeling that nothing in
life now was worth while and there followed on that a wild impulse to
let go, to fling off the restraints that he had retained now for so long
and with such bitter determination.
He wanted to cast aside this absurd party, to hurry home alone with
Clare, to sit alone with her in the little house and to reach the divine
moment when reconciliation came and they were closer to one another than
ever before--and then there was the horrible suggestion that there would
be no reconciliation, that Clare would make of this absurd quarrel an
eternal breach, that things would never be right again.
He looked back and saw Clare smiling gaily, happily, at some friend. He
saw her as she had faced him, furiously, an hour earlier ... oh God! If
she should never care for him again!
He recognised many friends. There were the two young Galleons, Millicent
and Percival, looking as important and mysterious as possible, taxing
their brains for something clever to say....
“Ah, that's Life!” Peter heard Percival say to some one. Young fools, he
thought to himself, let them have my trouble and then they may talk.
But they were nice to him when he came up to them. The author of “Reuben
Hallard,” even though he did look like a sailor on leave, was worth
respecting--moreover, father liked him and believed in him--nevertheless
he was just a tiny bit “last year's sensation.” “Have you read,” said
Percival eagerly, “'The Violet's Redemption'? It really is the most
tremendous thing--all about a violet. There's the fellow who wrote it
over there--young chap standing with his back to the wall....”
There was also with them young Tony Gale who was a friend of Alice
Galleon. He was nice-looking, eager and enthusiastic. Rather too
enthusiastic, Peter, who did not like him, considered. Full of the joy
of life; everything was “topping” and “ripping.” “I can't understand,”
he would say, “why people find life dull. I never find it dull. It's the
most wonderful glorious thing--”
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