Very softly and stealthily the door opened and, holding a quivering
candle, with her finger to her mouth, there appeared his aunt. He looked
at her coldly as she came across the room towards him. He had never
felt any affection for her because she had always seemed to him weak
and useless--a frightened, miserable, vacillating, negative person--even
when he had been a very small boy he had despised her. Her eyes were red
and swollen with crying, her grey and scanty hair had fallen about her
collar, her old black blouse was unbuttoned at the top showing her bony
neck and her thin crooked hands were trembling in the candle-light. Her
eyes were large and frightened and her back was bent as though she
was cowering from a blow. She had never taken very much notice of her
nephew--of late she had been afraid of him; he was surprised now that
she should come to speak to him.
“Peter,” she said in a whisper, looking back over her shoulder at the
door.
“Yes,” he answered, staring at her.
“Oh, Peter!” she said again and began to cry--a whimpering noise and her
hands shaking so that the candle rocked in its stick.
“Well,” he said more softly, “you'd better put that candle down.”
She put it on the table and then stood beside him, crying pitifully,
jerking out little sentences--“I can't bear it.... I don't know what to
do.... I can't bear it.”
He got up from his chair and made her sit down on it and then he stood
by her and waited until she should recover a little. He felt suddenly
strangely tender towards her; she was his mother's sister, she had known
his mother all her life and perhaps in her weak silly way she had loved
her.
“No, aunt, don't cry.... It will be all right. I too am very unhappy. I
have missed so much. If I had only known earlier--”
The poor woman flung little distracted glances at the old man asleep on
the other side of the fire-place--
“Oh, dear, I had to come and talk to some one.... I was so frightened
upstairs. Your father's there with your mother. He sits looking at her
... and she was always so quiet and good and never did him any harm
or indeed any one ... and now he sits looking at her--but she's happy
now--he will be coming downstairs at any moment and I am afraid of what
he'll do if he sees me talking to you like this. But I feel as though I
must talk a little ... it's so quiet.”
“It's all right, aunt. There's no one to be frightened of. I am very
unhappy too. I'd like to talk about her to you.”
“No, no--your poor mother--I mustn't say anything. They'll be down upon
me if I say anything. They're very sharp. He's sitting up with her now.”
Peter drew another chair up close to her and took her thin hand in
his. She allowed him to do what he would and seemed to have no active
knowledge of her surroundings.
“We'll talk about her,” he said, “often. You shall tell me all about her
early life. I want to know everything.”
“Oh, no. I'm going away. Directly after the funeral. Directly after the
funeral I'm going away.”
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