Waking, he attempted to disregard the pain: curious, how pain warped his
shoulder and spread lower, with rod-like jerkings. Strange, how hot that
part of his body felt. He wanted to remove the bandages, strip his arm,
let it cool. The nurses had applied the bandages too tight. And there
was that inner gnawing, in the very marrow: it seemed to pour into the
heart valves and scald them. Hand hooked over his face, he tried to
remember something that might free him.
Free ... Jeannette ... she could free me ... a face ... not morphine ...
not ... got to keep myself from cracking up ... Sister Blanche, let me
talk to you ... Paris ... yes, when I recover ... no, I was in Paris as
a boy, yeah ... yeah, I liked Notre Dame ... I like those flying
buttresses ... they’re the best part of the church ... you have to
contemplate the church from the rear garden ... apse, by the Seine ...
those bronze figures walking on the roof-line ... notable ...
He complained of more pain and they brought ice packs. He sank into a
sweaty dream, a war nightmare, woke, and found Sister Blanche giving an
injection. When she had finished she bent over Orville and wiped his
face with a linen towel, patting the skin, whispering kindness,
encouragement.
"What?" he murmured. "What is it ... what did you say?"
"This will help you rest," Sister Blanche said, wanting him well, loving
him.
"Ah," he sighed loudly.
Already she had searched his belongings and found his ID: there was
little else to go on, just some letters, crumpled letters, love letters.
Often Sister Blanche wrote or wired or phoned the patient’s connections,
knowing what a visit from a loved one or friend could mean. Jeannette’s
bloodied letters stumped her although she could read a little English;
with the help of the British doctor they read Jean’s scrawl and made out
the address at the hospital. As quickly as possible, Blanche wired
Orville’s condition. A card from Colonel Ronde gave his Marseilles
address: she wrote there.
In her room, later on, in a cockroach wing of the hospital, she lay
down, her cap and rosary on her bed table. The telegram did not satisfy
her. As soon as she could she got up and wrote a detailed letter,
writing on a battered leather portfolio that was a treasure of hers.
Would the letter reach Jean?
Since there was no electric current, the amputation had to be postponed:
the emergency generator had no fuel.
Dennison’s fever was 105° ... he could not eat or assimilate liquids.
Blanche’s sixty-year-old restlessness forced her into the chapel where
she knelt in her favorite pew. She prayed for his recovery and for
those under her care: she named names: the list seemed to reach across
France: she begged that the war come to an end, that mankind reach a
state of harmony: harmony? Harmony, her subconscious asked. With all
the wounded, the millions dead?
Dennison woke in pain and rang his buzzer.
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