"You can’t see Lieutenant Dennison ... you cannot see him now. I have
been requested to inform anyone who comes."
"Is his condition very grave?"
"Yes ... If you care to wait, there’s our little chapel." She pointed
down the hall. "There are magazines on the bench." She pointed again.
"I can’t read anything ... I can’t ... you see he’s..."
The sad little face regarded a sadder face.
Jean left her overnight bag and went outside and stood a while on the
steps, the rain a benison: at a nearby baker she bought rolls and drank
coffee at the only table in the chilly entry. The china cup warmed her
hands: she refused to look ahead: it was something to have arrived at
the town, to be close to Orville: a girl of seven or eight asked Jean
for a roll or piece of bread: the rain had beaten the already beaten
clothes of the child: Jean bought her bread and hot chocolate and they
sat at the table together, silent: back at the hospital, a nurse
admitted Jean into Orville’s room: she saw, at once, that his arm had
been amputated. He was unconscious.
Hiding in the little chapel she began to sob, handkerchief stuffed over
her mouth. There was hardly any light in the room. A bouquet of
bedraggled flowers leaned against the base of a plaster statuette of the
Virgin. Alone in the chapel, sitting at the end of a pew, Jean cried
until there were no more tears.
No bomb, exploding during the London blitz, had left her like this:
Orville, without his arm, alone: her love had not been able to sustain
him: what promises could she offer?
She had to wait until mid-afternoon to see him: entering his room
warily, afraid, she noticed that the window curtains were nearly closed:
his face was in a deep shadow, his head deep in his pillow--a stranger’s
face. Bearded.
"Darling," she whispered. "Orv ... darling ... I’m here ... darling ...
it’s me..."
"Jean," he responded. "Sister Blanche said that you had come ... I was
waiting..." His voice trailed off.
She kissed his cheek, stroked his forehead, puzzled by the head
bandages; she hoped she was going to react sanely.
"I’m going to be sick," he said, in a faint voice.
"I’ll help you," she said, and picked up his kidney-shaped pan. "Now,"
she exclaimed professionally. "See, I’m here to take care of you.
See!"
"It was nothing," he said, breathing jerkily. "Nothing ... if nothing
came up, I guess I’ve cleaned house."
"Of course you have," she said.
"Ah!"
"Is your pain severe?"
"Not now ... not bad."
"Can I stay? ... I won’t stay long. Shall I talk a little? You just
lie there and listen, huh? How about that?"
In spite of his pain and uneasiness, in spite of the darkened room, he
was aware of her beauty, beauty of now and Ermenonville: there was
serenity in her voice: he thought: if I could raise my head a bit I
could see her better, all of her. He moved and pain got him; her voice
went out, her face simply wandered off somewhere, leaving a blouse and
skirt, an outstretched hand.
"Jeannette..."
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