Fräulein Schmidt and Mr. AnstrutherVon Arnim, Elizabeth
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Fräulein Schmidt and Mr. Anstruther
Von Arnim, Elizabeth
British -- Germany -- Fiction; Epistolary fiction; Germany -- Fiction; Love stories; Young women -- Fiction
blowing, no hills to climb, no trees to sit under, no books to read, no
friends to be with, no work to do, no heaven to go to. I feel now for
the first time that I would like to know Miss Cheriton. But it is really
almost impossibly difficult to write this letter; each thing I say seems
something I had better not have said. Write to me about your troubles as
often as you feel it helps you, and believe that I do most heartily
sympathize with you both, but don't mind, and forgive me, if my answers
are not satisfactory. I am unpracticed and ill at ease, clumsy, limited,
in this matter of frank writing about feelings, a matter in which you so
far surpass me. But I am always most sincerely your friend,
ROSE-MARIE SCHMIDT.
L
Galgenberg, Oct. 15th.
Dear Mr. Anstruther,--It's not much use for the absent to send bland
advice, to exhort to peace and putting aside of anger, when they have
only general principles to go on. You know more about Miss Cheriton than
I do, and I am obliged to believe you when you tell me you have every
reason to be bitter. But I can make few comments. My mouth is
practically shut. Only, as you told me you long ago left off caring for
her, the smart you are feeling now must be, it seems to me, simply the
smart of wounded vanity, and for that I'm afraid I have no soothing
lotion ready. Also I am bound to say that I think she was quite right to
give you up once she was sure you no longer loved her. I am all for
giving up, for getting rid of things grown rotten before it is too late,
and the one less bright spot I see on her otherwise correct conduct is
that she did not do it sooner. Don't think me hard, dear friend. If I
were your mother I would blindly yearn over my boy. As it is, you must
forgive my unfortunate trick of seeing plainly. I wish things would look
more adorned to me, less palpably obvious and ungarnished. These
tiresome eyes of mine have often made me angry. I would so much like to
sympathize wholly with you now, to be able to be indignant with Miss
Cheriton, call her a minx, say she is heartless, be ready with all sorts
of healing balms and syrups for you, poor boy in the clutches of a cruel
annoyance. But I can't. If you could love her again and make it up, that
indeed would be a happy thing. As it is--and your letter sets all hopes
of the sort aside once and for ever--you have had an escape; for if she
had not given you up I don't suppose you would have given her up--I
don't suppose that is a thing one often does. You would have married
her, and then heaven knows what would have become of your unfortunate
soul.
After all, you need not have told me you had left off loving her. I knew
it. I knew it at the time, I knew it within a week of when it happened.
And I have always hoped--I cannot tell you how sincerely--that it was
only a mood, and that you would go back to her again and be happy.
Yours sincerely,
ROSE-MARIE SCHMIDT.
LI
Galgenberg, Oct. 22d.
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