Fräulein Schmidt and Mr. AnstrutherVon Arnim, Elizabeth
General
Fräulein Schmidt and Mr. Anstruther
Von Arnim, Elizabeth
British -- Germany -- Fiction; Epistolary fiction; Germany -- Fiction; Love stories; Young women -- Fiction
But I will not bore you with these sentiments. See, I am always anxious
to get back quickly to the surface of things, anxious to skim lightly
over the places where tears, happy or miserable, lie, and not to touch
with so much as the brush of a wing the secret tendernesses of the soul.
Let us, sir, get back to vegetables. They are so safe as subjects for
polite letter-writing. And I have had three letters from you this week
condemning their use with all the fervor the English language places at
your disposal--really it is generous to you in this respect--as a
substitute for the mixed diet of the ordinary Philistine. Yes, sir, I
regard you as an ordinary Philistine; and if you want to know what that
in my opinion is, it is one who walks along in the ruts he found ready
instead of, after sitting on a milestone and taking due thought, making
his own ruts for himself. You are one of a flock; and you disapprove of
sheep like myself that choose to wander off and browse alone. You
condemn all my practices. Nothing that I think or do seems good in your
eyes. You tell me roundly that I am selfish, and accuse me, not roundly
because you are afraid it might be indecorous, but obliquely, in a mask
of words that does not for an instant hide your meaning, of wearing
Jaeger garments beneath my outer apparel. Soon, I gather you expect, I
shall become a spiritualist and a social democrat; and quite soon after
that I suppose you are sure I shall cut off my hair and go about in
sandals. Well, I'll tell you something that may keep you quiet: I'm
tired of vegetarianism. It isn't that I crave for fleshpots, for I shall
continue as before to turn my back on them, on 'the boiled and roast,
The heated nose in face of ghost,' but I grudge the time it takes and
the thought it takes. For the fortnight I have followed its precepts I
have lived more entirely for my body than in any one fortnight of my
life. It was all body. I could think of nothing else. I was tending it
the whole day. Instead of growing, as I had fondly hoped, so free in
spirit that I would be able to draw quite close to the _liebe Gott_, I
was sunk in a pit of indifference to everything needing effort or
enthusiasm. And it is not simple after all. Shelley's meal of roots
sounds easy and elementary, but think of the exertion of going out,
strengthened only by other roots, to find more for your next meal. Nuts
and fruits, things that require no cooking, really were elaborate
nuisances, the nuts having to be cracked and the fruit freed from what
Papa called its pedestrian portions. And they were so useless even then
to a person who wanted to go out and dig in the garden. All they could
do for me was to make me appreciate sofas. I am tired of it, tired of
wasting precious time thinking about and planning my wretched diet.
Yesterday I had an egg for breakfast--it gave me one of Pater's
'exquisite moments'--and a heavenly bowl of coffee with milk in it, and
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