'Isn't she?' said Althea. And now, as they rolled on between the
dripping hedges, she knew that the trembling of hope and fear was gone,
and that a sudden misery, like that of the earth and sky, had settled
upon her. He had not kissed her. He did not even take her hand. Oh, why
did he not kiss her? why did he not know that she wanted love and
comfort? Only her pride controlled the cry.
Gerald looked out of the window and seemed to find everything very
pleasant. 'I went to the play last night,' he said. 'Kane took a party
of us--Helen, Miss Buchanan, Lord Compton, and Molly Fanshawe. What a
good sort he is, Kane; a real character.'
'You didn't get at him at all in the summer, did you?' said Althea, in
her deadened voice.
'No,' said Gerald reflectively, 'not at all; and I don't think that I
get much more at him now, you know; but I see more what's in him; he is
so extraordinarily kind and he takes his money so nicely. And, O Lord!
how he is being run after! He really has millions, you know; the mothers
are all at his traces trying to track him down, and he is as cheerful
and as unconcerned as you please.' Gerald suddenly smiled round at her
again. 'I say, Althea, don't you regret him sometimes? It would have
been a glorious match, you know.'
Althea felt herself growing pale. 'Regret him!' she said, and, for her,
almost violently, the opportunity was an outlet for her wretchedness; 'I
can't conceive how a man's money can make any difference. I couldn't
have married Franklin if he'd been a king!'
'Oh, my dear!' said Gerald, startled; 'I didn't mean it seriously, of
course.'
'It seems to me,' said Althea, trying to control her labouring breath,
'that over here you take nothing quite so seriously as that--great
matches, I mean, and money.'
Gerald was silent for a moment; then, in a very courteous voice he said:
'Have I offended you in any way, Althea?'
Tears stood in her eyes; she turned away her head to hide them. 'Yes,
you have,' she said, and the sound of her voice shocked her, it so
contradicted the crying out of her disappointed heart.
But though Gerald was blind on occasions that did not seem to him to
warrant any close attention, he was clear-sighted on those that did. He
understood that something was amiss; and though her exclamation had,
indeed, made him angry for a moment, he was now sorry; he felt that she
was unhappy, and he couldn't bear people to be unhappy. 'I've done
something that displeases you,' he said, taking her hand and leaning
forward to look into her eyes, half pleading and half rallying her in
the way she knew so well. 'Do forgive me.'
She longed to put her head on his shoulder and sob: 'I wanted you to
love me'; but that would have been to abase herself too much; yet the
tears fell as she answered, trying to smile: 'It was only that you hurt
me; even in jest I cannot bear to have you say that I could have been so
sordid.'
He pressed her hand. 'I was only in fun, of course. Please forgive me.'
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