She was aware that she must seem to be trying, strangely, incredibly, to
prove to Helen that she had been in love with Franklin; to prove to her
that she had no right not to resent anything; no right to find
forgiveness so easy. But there was no time now to stop.
'Of course we became the greatest friends,' Helen said, and it was as
if with relief for the outlet. She was bewildered, and did not know
where they were going. 'I don't need to tell you what I think of
Franklin. He is the dearest and best of men, and you are the luckiest of
women to have won him.'
'Ah,' uncontrollably Althea rose to her feet with almost the cry, 'I
see; you think me lucky to have won a man who, in himself, without
money, wasn't good enough for you. Thank you.'
For a long moment--and in it they both recognised that the crash had
come, and that they were struggling in dark, cold water--Helen was
silent. She kept her eyes on Althea and she did not move. Then, while
she still looked steadily upon her, a slow colour rose in her cheeks. It
was helplessly, burningly, that she blushed, and Althea saw that she
blushed as much for anger as for shame, and that the shame was for her.
She did not need Helen's blush to show her what she had done, what
desecration she had wrought. Her own blood beat upwards in hot surges
and tears rushed into her eyes. She covered her face with her hands and
dropped again into her chair, sobbing.
Helen did not help her out. She got up and went to the mantelpiece and
looked down at the fire for some moments. And at last she spoke, 'I
didn't mean that either. I think that Franklin is too good for either of
us.'
'Good!' wept Althea. 'He is an angel. Do you suppose I don't see that?
But why should I pretend when you don't. I'm not in love with Franklin.
I'm unworthy of him--more unworthy of him than you were--but I'm not in
love with him, even though he is an angel. So don't tell me that I am
lucky. I am a most miserable woman.' And she wept on, indifferent now to
any revelations.
Presently she heard Helen's voice. It was harder than she had ever known
it. 'May I say something? It's for his sake--more than for yours. What I
advise you to do is not to bother so much about love. You couldn't stick
to Gerald because you weren't loved enough; and you're doubting your
feeling for Franklin, now, because you can't love him enough. Give it
all up. Follow my second-rate example. Be glad that you're marrying an
angel and that he has all that money. And do remember that though you're
not getting what you want, you are getting a good deal and he is getting
nothing, so try to play the game and to see if you can't make it up to
him; see if you can't make him happy.'
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