Franklin had all his time free for sitting with Helen under the trees.
Althea's self-reproach, her self-doubt and melancholy, had been effaced
by the arrival of Gerald Digby, and, at that epoch of her life, did not
return at all. She had no time for self-doubt or self-reproach, no time
even for self-consciousness. Franklin had faded into the dimmest
possible distance; she was only just aware that he was there and that
Helen seemed, kindly, to let him talk a good deal to her. She could not
think of Franklin, she could not think of herself, she could think of
nobody but one person, for her whole being was absorbed in the thought
of Gerald Digby and in the consciousness of the situation that his
coming had created. From soft exhilaration she had passed to miserable
depression, yet a depression far different from the stagnant melancholy
of her former mood; this was a depression of frustrated feeling, not of
lack of feeling, and it was accompanied by the recognition of the fact
that she exceedingly disliked Lady Pickering and wished exceedingly that
she would go away. And with it went a brooding sense of delight in
Gerald's mere presence, a sense of delight in even the pain that his
indifference inflicted upon her.
He charmed her unspeakably--his voice, his smile, his gestures--and she
knew that she did not charm him in any way, and that Lady Pickering, in
her very foolishness, did charm him, and the knowledge made her very
grave and careful when she was with him. Delight and pain were hidden
beneath this manner of careful gravity, but, as the excitement of
Franklin's presence had at first done--and in how much greater
degree--they subtly transformed her; made her look and speak and move
with a different languor and gentleness.
Gerald himself was the first to feel a change, the first to become aware
of an aroma of mystery. He had been indifferent indeed, though he had
obeyed Helen and had tried not only to be very courteous but to be very
nice as well. Now, finding Althea's grave eyes upon him when he
sometimes yielded to Lady Pickering's allurements, finding them turned
away with that look of austere mildness, he ceased to be so indifferent,
he began to wonder how much the little Puritan disapproved and how much
she really minded; he began to make surmises about the state of mind
that could be so aloof, so gentle, and so inflexible.
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