England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction; Upper class families -- England -- Fiction
Against that cruel laughter--more poignant than a hundred homilies on
caste, a thousand scornful words--the little model literally could
not stand; she sat down in the low chair where she had evidently been
sitting to watch the street. But as a taste of blood will infuriate a
hound, so her own laughter seemed to bereave Bianca of all restraint.
“What do you imagine he's taking you for, girl? Only out of pity! It's
not exactly the emotion to live on in exile. In exile--but that you do
not understand!”
The little model staggered to her feet again. Her face had grown
painfully red.
“He wants me!” she said.
“Wants you? As he wants his dinner. And when he's eaten it--what then?
No, of course he'll never abandon you; his conscience is too tender. But
you'll be round his neck--like this!” Bianca raised her arms, looped,
and dragged them slowly down, as a mermaid's arms drag at a drowning
sailor.
The little model stammered: “I'll do what he tells me! I'll do what he
tells me!”
Bianca stood silent, looking at the girl, whose heaving breast and
little peacock's feather, whose small round hands twisting in front of
her, and scent about her clothes, all seemed an offence.
“And do you suppose that he'll tell you what he wants? Do you imagine
he'll have the necessary brutality to get rid of you? He'll think
himself bound to keep you till you leave him, as I suppose you will some
day!”
The girl dropped her hands. “I'll never leave him--never!” she cried out
passionately.
“Then Heaven help him!” said Bianca.
The little model's eyes seemed to lose all pupil, like two chicory
flowers that have no dark centres. Through them, all that she was
feeling struggled to find an outlet; but, too deep for words, those
feelings would not pass her lips, utterly unused to express emotion. She
could only stammer:
“I'm not--I'm not--I will---” and press her hands again to her breast.
Bianca's lip curled.
“I see; you imagine yourself capable of sacrifice. Well, you have your
chance. Take it!” She pointed to the corded trunk. “Now's your time; you
have only to disappear!”
The little model shrank back against the windowsill. “He wants me!” she
muttered. “I know he wants me.”
Bianca bit her lips till the blood came.
“Your idea of sacrifice,” she said, “is perfect! If you went now, in a
month's time he'd never think of you again.”
The girl gulped. There was something so pitiful in the movements of her
hands that Bianca turned away. She stood for several seconds staring at
the door, then, turning round again, said:
“Well?”
But the girl's whole face had changed. All tear-stained, indeed, she had
already masked it with a sort of immovable stolidity.
Bianca went swiftly up to the trunk.
“You shall!” she said. “Take that thing and go.”
The little model did not move.
“So you won't?”
The girl trembled violently all over. She moistened her lips, tried
to speak, failed, again moistened them, and this time murmured; “I'll
only--I'll only--if he tells me!”
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