Frederic Chopin: His Life, Letters, and Works, v. 1 (of 2)Karasowski, Maurycy
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Frederic Chopin: His Life, Letters, and Works, v. 1 (of 2)
Karasowski, Maurycy
Chopin, Frédéric, 1810-1849
Dr. Freyer, having learnt from Schuch that I was in Vienna, has
been to see me two or three times. He gave me a great deal of
interesting news, and was very pleased with your letters, which I
read to him up to a certain passage, which passage made me feel
very sad. Does she really look so changed? Do you think she was
ill? She is of such a sensitive nature that this is not at all
unlikely. But, perhaps, it was only your imagination, or she had
been frightened by something. God forbid that she should suffer
anything on my account! Comfort her, and assure her that as long
as my heart beats I shall not cease to adore her. Tell her that,
after my death, my ashes shall be spread beneath her feet. But
this is not half what you might say to her on my behalf. I would
write to her myself, and, indeed, should have done so long ago, to
escape the torments I endure, but if my letter chanced to fall into
other hands, might it not injure her reputation? So you must be the
interpreter of my thoughts; speak for me, “et jʼen conviendrai.”
These words of yours flashed through me like lightning, when I read
your letter. A Viennese, who happened to be walking with me at the
time, seized me by the arm, and could scarcely hold me in. He could
not make out what had come to me. I could have embraced and kissed
all the passers by, for your first letter had made my heart feel
lighter than it had been for many a day.
I am sure I must be wearying you, my dear friend, but it is
difficult for me to hide from you anything that touches my heart.
The day before yesterday I dined with Frau Beyer, who is also
called Constantia. I enjoy visiting her very much, because she
bears a name so unspeakably dear to me; I even rejoice if one of
her pocket-handkerchiefs or serviettes marked “Constantia” falls
into my hands. Slawick is a friend of hers, and I often go to her
house with him.
Yesterday, as on Christmas Eve, we played in the fore and
afternoon. The weather was spring-like. As I was returning in
the evening from the Baronessʼs circle, I walked slowly into St.
Stephenʼs. I was alone, for Slawick was obliged to go to the
Imperial Chapel. The church was empty, and, to get the full effect
of the lofty and imposing edifice, I leant against a pillar in
the darkest corner. The vastness and splendour of the arching are
indescribable: one must see St. Stephenʼs for oneʼs self. The
profoundest silence, broken only by the resounding steps of the
vergers coming to light the tapers, reigned around.
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