Remembering as you will my unhappy lot, you will not feel surprised that
I should take a deep interest in what people call the love affairs of
the young, but which I look upon as something too great and holy to be
spoken of with anything but reverence and respect. For that attraction
that draws youth to youth in the bright spring-time of their lives, what
is it but a heaven-implanted instinct that leads the stronger to take
the weaker under his protection, and joins two hearts in a compact of
love for life, giving to each a true counsellor, a tender companion, and
a shield of strength to bear the troubles of this world?
It has been in no busy, old-maidish, envious spirit that I have watched
these affairs. I have never been one to hurry into a church to see a
wedding, for I was never present at one in my life; but I have felt a
kind of joy that I cannot express when I have seen some fine manly young
fellow grow softened in his manner, and gradually become chivalrous and
attentive to some sweet maiden, for it has revived old memories of the
past, and set me dreaming of what might have been had it not been
otherwise willed.
One thing has often struck me, and that is the natural selfishness that
is brought out in a father, and the feeling of half-dislike with which
he looks upon the man who comes, as it were, to rob him of the soft
sweet maiden whom he has had growing closer and closer round his heart.
I have often tried to put myself in his place, and when I have so done I
have easily felt how painful it must be to draw the line between the two
natural affections there are in the girl's heart--the love of her father
and that for the man who seeks to make her his wife.
The selfish feeling is but natural, and the father must feel heart-wrung
as he fancies that his child's love is going from him fast, and he
trembles with dread at the thought that his little ewe lamb is about to
be taken away from the fold, to be plunged into endless trouble and
care; to encounter storms from which he has shielded her heretofore; and
he wonders how she would bear such troubles as have fallen to his and
her mother's lot, forgetting that every life must inevitably be one of
storm and calm.
"I noted all this particularly in the case of a friend of the Smiths, a
Mr Burrows, with whom and his family I became very intimate. He was a
successful City man, who had engaged with great shrewdness in trade, and
amassed a considerable amount of money. He and Mr Smith were great
friends, and were wont to advise each other, Mr Burrows placing great
faith in the sturdy sewing-machine dealer in most things; but there had
been a great deal of difference in the two men, the selfishness of which
I have spoken and jealousy about his daughter being the predominant
points in Mr Burrows, who was lavish with his money, while Smith, who
had had a far harder struggle to get on, always seemed to have an
intense affection for his banking account.
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