While Alice therefore was kind, she seemed to avoid him; and he
found it almost impossible to be alone with her. She had always
dwelt in his mind, more as a cherished ideal, a revered saint,
than as an ordinary flesh-and-blood girl with whom he was fit to
associate, and for a time after her return her manner increased
this impression. He explained the recognized fact that she shunned
his society by thinking that she knew his evil tendencies, and that
to her believing and Christian spirit his faithless and irregular
life was utterly uncongenial. For a short time he had tried to
ignore her opinion and society in reckless indifference; but the
loveliness of her person and character daily grew more fascinating,
and his evil habits lost in power as she gained. For some little
time before Mrs. Byram's company, he had been earnestly wishing
that he could become worthy of at least her esteem and old friendly
regard, not daring to hope for anything more. It never occurred to
him that gossip had coupled his name with his cousin Addie, and
that this fact influenced Miss Martell's manner as well as his
tendencies toward dissipation. He laid it all to the latter cause,
and was beginning to feel that he could live the life of an ascetic,
if this lovely saint would only permit his devotion.
And Alice, so sensitive where he was concerned, thought she
saw a change in him for the better, and in the spirit of womanly
self-sacrifice was resolving to see more of him than was prudent
for her peace of mind, if by so doing she could regain her old
power to advise and restrain.
With gladness she recognized her influence over him at Mrs. Byram's
company, and, as we have seen, made the most of it. But, with
surprise and some strange thrills at heart, she noted that he and
Addie Marchmont did not act as an engaged couple naturally would;
and observed, with disgust, that Miss Marchmont seemed more pleased
with Brently's attentions than Lottie Marsden had been.
That a man of Harcourt's force and mind should be captivated by
such a girl as Miss Marchmont, had been a mystery; and she thought,
when seeing them together in Mrs. Byram's parlors, "They take it
more coolly than any people I ever saw."
Addle appeared engrossed with the attentions of others, and Harcourt
not in the least jealous or annoyed. In brief, they acted like
cousins, and not in the least like lovers.
But in the sensitive delicacy of her character she would not permit
her mind to dwell on the problem of their relations, and bent all
her thoughts upon her effort to win Harcourt to a better life.
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