The "miserable sinners," as the prayer-book has it, whom Hemstead
had in fact made quite miserable for a time, grew more comfortable
after dinner; and by three o'clock, so far from employing hair-cloth
and scourgings, or even the mildest form of a crusade against
the weaknesses of the flesh, were all dozing and digesting in the
most luxurious manner. Lottie was the only "sinner" who remained
"miserable"; but she was not more "out of sorts" than the one who,
ex officio, as the world is prone to believe, Ought to have been
calm and serene upon his theological height above the clouds.
As she entered the parlor with her velvet-like tread, she paused
a moment to observe the Boanerges of the morning. As he sat alone
before the fire, with his elbows upon his knees and his face buried
in his hands, he looked more like a weak mortal than a "son of
thunder." He did not look a bit like one who, with face as firm
and inflexible as God's purpose, was anxious to step into the fiery
furnace before it was ready.
She drew a few steps nearer, and stood over him with a curious
expression on her face, which could so well mask or reveal her thought
as she chose. She had come downstairs in a state of irritable and
defiant protest against his doctrines, and with no little vexation
at him for being their mouth-piece. If she had found him calmly
pacing the floor, pondering on human frailty and folly, or if he
had been reading judicially a semi-sceptical work, that he might
demolish the irreverent author, she would have made an onslaught
whose vigor, if not logic, would have greatly disturbed his
equanimity and theological poise. But when she saw his attitude
of deep dejection, and when twice he sighed long and heavily,
her woman's nature was disarmed, and she began to think that his
doctrines were as hard upon him as upon the rest. Instinctively
she took his part against God, whose formative hand appeared too
heavy for them both.
Therefore, instead of the hard, bitter words that she intended to
speak, she said, with a little quaver in her voice. "Mr. Hemstead,
I almost believe that you feel as bad as I do."
When he looked up she was sure he felt worse. But he seemed to try
to forget his own trouble as he said kindly, "I'm sorry you feel
bad."
"Well," said Lottie, sitting down on the opposite side of the hearth,
while the fire, on which Hemstead had thrown some damp green wood,
smoked dismally between them, "I do think you are a little sorry."
"Can I help you in any way? I wish you knew how gladly I would do
so."
"Yes, I believe that, too. You don't look a bit as if you would
like to throw me into a fiery furnace, and see if I would come out
a lump of gold or a good-for-nothing cinder."
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