"I'm sincere in what I say," she continued earnestly, "Please don't
misunderstand me. As far as I am a judge I think your sermon was
well written, and it certainly was delivered effectively; for,
though none of us liked it, we couldn't help listening. But its
strongest effect was to make me wish I was an infidel and, like
Mr. Harcourt, did not believe in anything. I honestly think that
it will be a very poor calling to go out among the poor people on
the frontier and preach such a gospel as you gave us this morning.
In the name of pity, haven't they enough to contend with now?
In addition to the scalping Indians, the border ruffians, the
grasshoppers, and grinding poverty, are you going to give them
a religion in which the furnace of affliction and the crucible of
trial flame as the centre? Poor creatures! I suppose they are in
hard and hot places most of the time, but don't make them think
that God puts them there, and that there is no chance to get out
till He is through with them. I can tell you beforehand, that people
are not going to get into the fiery furnace and commence having
a miserable time of it before they must. Let us be as comfortable
as we can, while we can. If you feel that you have mistaken your
calling--and I hope you have--I'm sure that father, at my request,
will find you a better one in New York."
Poor Hemstead was as satisfied as Luther had been that this was
a temptation of the devil; but before him was no such apparition
as that against which the great reformer could hurl his ink-horn
without leaving a spot.
With the lurid flash of Lucifer as he fell from heaven, the thought
passed through his disquieted mind, "And in New York I might win
the hand and heart of this beautiful girl." But every quality of
his soul frowned so darkly on this thought, which held out Lottie
Marsden as a bribe, that it soon skulked away. His mind reverted
to the main difficulty, and he said, "Surely, Miss Marsden, I did
not preach such a religion as you suggest."
"You surely did, Mr. Hemstead, as I could soon prove to you. I am
glad you are so inconsistent a professor of your religion."
"Am I an inconsistent professor?" he asked sadly.
"Indeed you are," she replied; and both mischief and kindness lurked
in her eyes. "You don't live up to your doctrines at all."
"Little wonder, then," he exclaimed, in bitter self-condemnation,
"that all turn from my teaching."
She looked at him with a curious smile, as she thought, "What
a child he is! He is but wax in my hands. If he should marry a
cold-hearted, selfish woman, with a spice of petty, teasing malice
in her nature, she could sit down quietly at his hearth and torture
to death this overgrown man, with whole libraries in his brain. I
could wring his soul now, by making him think that he had lived so
unworthily that we could not listen to his most unworthy sermon."
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account