"She is probably engaged, but is ceasing to love him," he thought.
"She never could have respected him, and now he has forfeited whatever
affection she may have had. Still she feels that she is chained
to him, and must endure the life-long martyrdom of an ill-mated
marriage"; and his heart overflowed with a great pity.
It did not occur to him that he was a miracle of disinterestedness
when Lottie was concerned; and that her troubles moved him more than
the woes of all the world beside. Like many another life-voyager,
with hand upon the helm, he thought that he was directing his course,
when in feet a strong and subtile current was sweeping him he not
whither.
He and Lottie did not have much to say to each but their eyes
often met, and at times, in his frank impulsiveness, he looked at
her so earnestly and sympathetically that she turned away to hide
her heightened color. She was becoming conscious, with a secret
wonder, that he, as no man ever before, had the power to cause her
blood to ebb and flow in the most unaccountable manner.
A short time after their arrival he wandered over to the side of the
chapel where Miss Martell was working, and she seemingly fascinated
him. They apparently became so absorbed in each other's words as
to think of no one else, and Lottie grew pale and quiet, feeling,
in the mean time, an unreasonable resentment towards Miss Martell.
If Lottie has received a little grace, she is, and ever will be,
the natural possessor of abundance of human nature. Is this pale
and silent girl the one whose cheeks, a little before, were aflame,
and every nerve tingling with the most unwonted sensations, and
for no better reason apparently than that Hemstead had seen her
tugging at a fibrous spray of hemlock, and had severed it with his
knife? That was all the others had seen; but there was a great deal
more, for in the act their hands had touched, and both had seemed
in a positive state in the power to give, and in the negative
in readiness to receive, a subtile influence, compared with which
electricity is a slow and material agent. And he had lifted his
large gray eyes to hers full of--he did not realize what, nor did
she--but the cause was there, and the effect followed.
But now, with secret uneasiness, Lottie notes that he seems oblivious
of her in his eager talk with Miss Martell.
Soon after joining the latter, Hemstead had said, in his
straightforward manner, "You intimated to Mr. Harcourt yesterday
that you were 'sorry he heard my sermon.'"
With a little embarrassment she replied, "I do not think that Mr.
Harcourt was in the right condition of mind to be benefited by your
line of thought."
"Do you think that any one could be benefited by it?"
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