"You look very happy, Mr. Hemstead," said Lottie, gratefully. "Would
you be very glad to have me become a Christian?"
He looked at her so earnestly that the rich blood mounted to her
very brow. After a moment, he replied, in a low, trembling tone:
"I scarcely dare trust myself to answer your question, and yet I
do not exaggerate when I assure you that if I could feel that you
were a Christian before I go away, it seems as if I could never
see a dark day again. O Miss Marsden, how I have hoped and prayed
that you might become one!"
Her head bowed low in guilty shame. She compared her purpose towards
him with his towards her. Before she thought, the words slipped
out, "And for all my wrong to you, you seek to give me heaven in
return."
He looked at her inquiringly, not understanding her remark; but
after a moment said, "It would be heaven to me on earth, even in
my lonely work in the West, if I could remember that, as a result
of our brief acquaintance, you had become a Christian."
"Well," she said emphatically, "our acquaintance does promise to
end differently from what I expected; and it is because you are
different. You are not the kind of a man that I expected you would
be."
"But I understood you from the first," remarked Hemstead, complacently.
"My first impression when you gave me your warm hand, and the only
true welcome I received, has been borne out. Though at times you
have puzzled me, still, the proof you gave--on the evening of my
arrival--of a true, generous, and womanly nature, has been confirmed
again and again. It has seemed to me that your faults were due
largely to circumstances, but that your good qualities were native."
Again Lottie turned away her burning cheeks in deep embarrassment.
Should she tell him all? She felt she could not. To lose his good
opinion and friendship now seemed terrible. But conscience demanded
that she should be perfectly frank and sincere with him, and her
fears whispered, "He may learn it from the others, and that would
be far worse than if I told him myself."
But her moral strength was not yet equal to the test. The old,
prevailing influences of her life again swayed her, and she guided
the conversation from the topic as a pilot would shun a dangerous
rock.
"I will tell him all about it at some future time," she thought;
"but not yet when the knowledge might drive him away in anger."
She seized upon one of his words, which, when spoken, had jarred
unpleasantly upon her feeling.
"Why do you speak of our acquaintance as brief? Are we to be
strangers again after this short visit is over?"
"I most positively assure you that you can never be a stranger to
me again," he said eagerly. "But in a few days you will go to New
York, and I thousands of miles in another direction. If I should
tell you how you will dwell in my thoughts like an inspiration,
I fear you would think me sentimental. But in your absorbing city
life I fear that I shall soon become as a stranger to you."
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