"Who with right claims the higher rank," Lottie answered, her
lovely face growing noble with her thought,--"a queenly belle with
a false, selfish heart, or a Christian woman? And what is that
world which you say is at my feet? Where is it to-night? Where was
it when the tempest made it doubtful whether we should ever see this
new year? Here I am in the solemn midnight, and upon this desolate
mountain. It is not the softness of a summer night to which we are
exposed; it is midwinter. And yet I am certain that there is not a
queen on the earth as happy as I am. But what part has that world
to which you refer had in making me happy? I knew there was danger
last night. I had read of people perishing in the snow almost at
their own doors. I think I realized that death might be near, but
my heart was so light and happy in the consciousness of your love
and God's love, that I could look at the grim old fellow, and
laugh in his face. But suppose that I had had nothing better then
to think of than this vague world, about which you are making so
much ado? Once before, when the world was at my feet, as you term
it, I faced a sudden danger in your company. Thanks to God's mercy
and your skill and strength, we were not dashed down into that ravine
when the horses ran away. What did the world do for me then? Did
it throw a ray of light into that black gulf of death, which yawned
on every side? Oh, thank God," she said with passionate earnestness,
"that I was not sent out of life that night, a shivering ghost, a
homeless wanderer forever! But what could the world do to prevent
it? I know all about that glittering world, Frank, to gain which
so many are staking their all, and I know it's more of a phantom
than a reality. It flattered me, excited and intoxicated me, but
it never made me one-hundredth part as happy as I am tonight. And
when I thought I had lost your respect and your love, I no more
thought of turning to the world for solace and happiness, than I
would look in a coal-bin for diamonds. I knew all about the world,
and in the depths of my soul realized that it was a sham. How far
away it is to-night, with these solemn mountains rising all around
us; and yet how near seem God and heaven, and how sweet and satisfying
the hopes they impart! I have thought it all out, Frank. The time
is coming when illness or age, mortal pain and weakness, will shut
me away, like these dark, wintry hills, even from your love,--much
more from the uncaring, heartless world; but something in my heart
tells me that my Saviour, who wept for sympathy when no one else
would weep, will be my strong, faithful friend through it all, and
not for all the worlds glittering there in yonder sky, much less
for ray poor little gilt and tinsel world in New York, will I give
up this assurance."
"I am satisfied," said Hemstead, in a tone of deep content; "God
wills it."
They sat for a long time without speaking, in the unison of feeling
that needed no words.
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