Mathieu was almost on the point of answering her that, even if this child
were found again, it could hardly cure her of her grief at having no
child of her own. He had divined her agony at seeing Blaise take
Maurice's place at the works now that Beauchêne had resumed his dissolute
life, and daily intrusted the young man with more and more authority.
Blaise's home was prospering too; Charlotte had now given birth to a
second child, a boy, and thus fruitfulness was invading the place and
usurpation becoming more and more likely, since Constance could never
more have an heir to bar the road of conquest. Without penetrating her
singular feelings, Mathieu fancied that she perhaps wished to sound him
to ascertain if he were not behind Blaise, urging on the work of
spoliation. She possibly imagined that her request would make him
anxious, and that he would refuse to make the necessary researches. At
this idea he decided to do as she desired, if only to show her that he
was above all the base calculations of ambition.
"I am at your disposal, cousin," said he. "It is enough for me that this
inquiry may give you a little relief. But if the lad is alive, am I to
bring him to you?"
"Oh! no, no, I do not ask that!" And then, gesticulating almost wildly,
she stammered: "I don't know what I want, but I suffer so dreadfully that
I am scarce able to live!"
In point of fact a tempest raged within her, but she really had no
settled plan. One could hardly say that she really thought of that boy as
a possible heir. In spite of her hatred of all conquerors from without,
was it likely that she would accept him as a conqueror, in the face of
her outraged womanly feelings and her _bourgeois_ horror of illegitimacy?
And yet if he were not her son, he was at least her husband's. And
perhaps an idea of saving her empire by placing the works in the hands of
that heir was dimly rising within her, above all her prejudices and her
rancor. But however that might be, her feelings for the time remained
confused, and the only clear thing was her desperate torment at being now
and forever childless, a torment which goaded her on to seek another's
child with the wild idea of making that child in some slight degree her
own.
Mathieu, however, asked her, "Am I to inform Beauchêne of the steps I
take?"
"Do you as you please," she answered. "Still, that would be the best."
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