Perhaps it was this discovery, perhaps it was some instinct stronger
than this; but when Arthur had satisfied himself of this fact he left
the direct road, which would have brought him to the Mission, and
diverged upon the open plain towards the Rancho of the Blessed Trinity.
A fierce wind from the sea swept the broad _llano_ and seemed to oppose
him, step by step--a wind so persistent and gratuitous that it appeared
to Arthur to possess a moral quality, and as such was to be resisted and
overcome by his superior will. Here, at least, all was unchanged; here
was the dead, flat monotony of land and sky. Here was the brittle, harsh
stubble of the summer fields, sun-baked and wind-dried; here were the
long stretches of silence, from which even the harrying wind made no
opposition nor complaint; here were the formless specks of slowly-moving
cattle, even as he remembered them before. A momentary chill came over
him as he recalled his own perilous experience on these plains, a
momentary glow suffused his cheek as he thought of his rescue by the
lovely but cold recluse. Again he heard the name of "Philip" softly
whispered in his ears, again he felt the flood of old memories sweep
over him as he rode, even as he had felt them when he lay that day
panting upon the earth. And yet Arthur had long since convinced his mind
that he was mistaken in supposing that Donna Dolores had addressed him
at that extreme moment as "Philip;" he had long since believed it was a
trick of his disordered and exhausted brain; the conduct of Dolores
towards himself, habitually restrained by grave courtesy, never
justified him in directly asking the question, nor suggested any
familiarity that might have made it probable. She had never alluded to
it again--but had apparently forgotten it. Not so Arthur! He had often
gone over that memorable scene, with a strange, tormenting pleasure that
was almost a pain. It was the one incident of his life, for whose poetry
he was not immediately responsible--the one genuine heart-thrill whose
sincerity he had not afterwards stopped to question in his critical
fashion, the one enjoyment that had not afterwards appeared mean and
delusive. And now the heroine of this episode was missing, and he might
never perhaps see her again! And yet when he first heard the news he was
conscious of a strange sense of relief--rather let me say of an
awakening from a dream, that though delicious, had become dangerous and
might unfit him for the practical duties of his life. Donna Dolores had
never affected him as a real personage--at least the interest he felt in
her was, he had always considered, due to her relations to some romantic
condition of his mind, and her final disappearance from the plane of his
mental vision was only the exit of an actress from the mimic stage. It
seemed only natural that she should disappear as mysteriously as she
came. There was no shock even to the instincts of his ordinary
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