Jerking open a drawer of her dressing table she caught sight of her face
in the mirror, and her eyes widened with delighted surprise. Gone was
the pinched, white, shame-stricken face, and in its place was beauty
such as she had never dreamed she possessed. She turned away from the
mirror, tremulous and abashed, for what she had to do would not be easy.
Her eyes tried to avoid the exquisite photograph of her mother that
stood in its blue leather frame on the dressing table, but at last she
snatched it up and carried it against her breast as she ran to her desk.
She felt that she was talking to Enid as she wrote, pleading for
understanding and forgiveness from those dreaming, misty,
cornflower-blue eyes:
“Mother, darling: I’m running away, to go to David. Please don’t try to
stop me or bring me back, for I’ll have to run away again if you do. I’m
going to marry David because I love him with all my heart and because he
is the only man I could ever marry without causing you shame. He already
knows the truth, and it made no difference in his love for me. You know
how it was with Grant Proctor. You said yourself that if I told him, he
would not want to marry me. And I could never marry a man without first
telling him the truth. Arthur Van Horne knew and wanted me to be his
mistress. He told me today. He did not think I was good enough to be his
wife. It would always be the same. And so I am going to David, who knows
and loves me anyway.
“Oh, Mother, forgive me for hurting you like this! But don’t you see
that I would hurt you more by staying? After a while you would be
ashamed of me because I could not marry. I would humiliate you in the
eyes of your friends. And I could not be happy ever, away from David. I
wanted to die after Arthur Van Horne told me today what he really wanted
of me, but now I know I want to live—with David. Please, Mother, don’t
think my love for you—”
She could write no more just then. Laying her hot cheek against the cold
glass of the framed photograph of her mother she sobbed so loudly, so
heart-brokenly that she did not hear a knock upon the door, did not know
her grief was being witnessed until she felt a hand upon her shoulder.
“Sally, darling! What in the world is the matter?” It was Enid Barr’s
tender, throaty contralto.
Sally sprang to her feet, her eyes wild with fear, her mother’s picture
still tightly clutched in her hands. “I—I was writing you a letter!” she
gasped. “I—I—”
“Perhaps I’d better read it now,” Enid said in an odd voice, and reached
for the scattered sheets of pale gray notepaper on the desk.
Sally wavered to a chair and slumped into it, too dazed with despair to
think coherently. She could not bear to look at her mother, for she knew
now how cowardly she had been, how abysmally selfish.
Her flaming face was hidden by her hands when, after what seemed many
long minutes, she heard her mother’s voice again:
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