“I want to marry you, of course!” David flung the confession at her
sternly. “I love you so much it’s torture to think of your going on to
New York with the carnival. Oh, it’s all so hopeless! We’re in such a
nasty jam, Sally, darling!” He groaned, snatched up her hands, kissed
them hungrily, passionately, then dropped them as if the soft, sweet
flesh stung his lips. “Don’t let me kiss you, Sally! For God’s sake! I
can’t stand it! And it’s not fair to you to learn what love means,
when—when we can’t go through with it.”
“But why can’t we, David?” she persisted, her love giving her amazing
boldness. “I’ll never love anyone else. I’ll wait for you, for years and
years. Until I’m eighteen and you’re twenty-three. You’re almost
twenty-one, aren’t you, David?”
“Yes,” he acknowledged. “But I’m just a kid. Why, I’m a minor yet!” he
reminded her with youth’s bitter shame. “And so are you. We couldn’t
even get married legally. And we’re both—wanted—by the police. I can’t
even figure out how I’m going to get back into A. & M. and finish my
course. I couldn’t let you marry a man wanted for attempted murder, even
if I could support you. Oh, I guess I could make a bare living for us,
but I don’t want that! Not for you! I want you to have everything lovely
in the world. You’ve had so little, so little! I want you to have silk
and velvet to make you forget blue-and-white-checked gingham. I want—”
he was going on passionately when Sally interrupted with her soft
delicious little laugh.
“I want David,” she said simply.
“All right!” he cried, flinging his arms wide in a gesture of utter
abandonment. “We’ll run away tonight. We’ll keep going until we get out
of the state. We’ll lie about our ages. We’ll find someone somewhere to
marry us, and we’ll—have each other if we have nothing else in the
world, Sally!”
His exultant young voice and his arms demanded her, but she held back
strangely, while her face went ghastly white and old in the moonlight.
“I—I forgot to tell you my news,” she said dully, tonelessly, her hands
flattened against her breast. “Mrs. Bybee found out something
about—about my mother, about me.”
Ecstasy was wiped from David’s face, leaving it hurt and bewildered. “So
you’re going to find her? Go back to her? I—I suppose I’m glad.”
“No,” she shook her head drearily. “I can’t marry you or—anyone, David.
My mother was not Mrs. Nora Ford. I don’t know who she was! I don’t even
know what my name really is—if I have a name! Whoever my mother was she
was ashamed I’d been born, she paid Mrs. Ford to take me away when I was
an infant, away from New York, so—so I wouldn’t disgrace her. I’m the
ugly name Nita called me today. I’m—I’m—”
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