"I'm not a young lady,"--said Cicely, decisively--"I was born a
peasant on the sea-coast of Cornwall--and I'm glad of it. A 'young
lady' nowadays means a milliner's apprentice or a draper's model. I
am neither. I am just a girl--and hope, if I live, to be a woman.
I'll take my own ideas of a suitable message from you to Maryllia--
don't YOU bother!" And she nodded sagaciously. "I won't make
ructions, I promise! Come about five!"
She waved her hand and ran off, leaving Walden in a mood between
perplexity and amusement. She was certainly an 'original,' and he
hardly knew what to make of her. There was something 'uncanny' and
goblin-like in her appearance, and yet her sallow face had a certain
charm when the smile illumined it, and the light of aspiration
burned up in the large wild eyes. In any case, she had persuaded him
in a moment, as it were, and almost involuntarily, to take tea at
the Manor that afternoon. Why he had consented to do what he had
hitherto refused, he could not imagine. Cicely's remark that Miss
Vancourt thought him 'rather rude,' worried him a little.
"Perhaps I have been rude"--he reflected, uneasily--"But I am not a
society man;--I'm altogether out of my element in the company of
ladies--and it seemed so much better that I should avoid being drawn
into any intimacy with persons who are not likely to have anything
in common with me--but of course I ought to be civil--in fact, I
suppose I ought to be neighbourly---"
Here a sudden irritation against the nature of his own thoughts
disturbed him. He was not arguing fairly with himself, and he knew
it. He was perfectly aware that ever since the day of their meeting
in the village post-office, he had wished to see Miss Vancourt
again. He had hoped she might pass the gate of the rectory, or
perhaps even look into his garden for a moment,--but his expectation
had not been realised. He had heard of Cicely Bourne's arrival,--and
he had received two charmingly-worded notes from Maryllia, inviting
him to the Manor,--which invitations, as has already been stated, he
had, with briefest courtesy, declined. Now, why,--if he indeed
wished to see her again,--had he deliberately refused the
opportunities given him of doing so? He could not answer this at all
satisfactorily to his own mind, and he was considerably annoyed with
himself to be forced to admit the existence of certain portions of
his mental composition which were apparently not to be probed by
logic, or measured by mathematics.
"Well, at any rate, as I have promised the little singer, I can go
up to tea just this once, and have done with it," he decided--"I
shall then be exonerated from 'rudeness'--and I can explain to Miss
Vancourt--quite kindly and courteously of course--that I am not a
visiting man,--that my habits are rather those of a recluse, and
then--for the future--she will understand."
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