"You are a goblin!"--he said--"An elf,--a pixie--a witch! You were
born in a dark cave where the sea dashed in at high tide and made
the rough stones roar with music. There were sea-gulls nesting above
your cradle, and when the wind howled, and you cried, they called to
you wildly in such a plaintive way that you stopped your tears to
listen to them, and to watch their white wings circling round you!
You are not a girl--no!--how can you be? For when you grew a little
older, the invisible people of the air took you away into a great
forest, and taught you to swing yourself on the boughs of the trees,
while the stars twinkled at you through the thick green leaves,--and
you heard the thrushes sing at morning and the nightingales at
evening, till at last you learned the trill and warble and the
little caught sob in the throat which almost breaks the heart of
those who listen to it? And so you have become what you are, and
what I say you always will be--a goblin--a witch!--not a girl, but a
genius!"
He waved his hand with fantastic gesture and raked up his hair.
"That's all very well and very pretty,"--said Cicely, showing her
even white teeth in a flashing 'goblin' grin,--"But of course you
don't mean a word of it! It's merely a way of talking, such as
poets, or men that call themselves poets, affect when the 'fit' is
on them. Just a string of words,--mere babble! You'd better write
them down, though,--you musn't waste them! Publishers pay for so
many words I believe, whether they're sense or nonsense,--please
don't lose any halfpence on my account! Do you know you are smiling
up at the sky as if you were entirely mad? Ordinary people would say
you were,--people to whom dinner is the dearest thing in life would
suggest your being locked up. And me, too, I daresay! You haven't
answered my question,--why don't you write something about
Maryillia?"
"She, too, is not a girl,"--rejoined Adderley--"She is a woman. And
she is absolutely unwritable!"
"Too lovely to find expression even in poetry,"--said Cicely,
complacently.
"No no!--not that! Not that!" And Adderley gave a kind of serpentine
writhe on the grass as he raised himself to a half-sitting posture--
"Gentle Goblin, do not mistake me! When I say that Miss Vancourt is
unwritable, I would fain point out that she is above and beyond the
reach of my Muse. I cannot 'experience' her! Yes--that is so! What a
poet needs most is the flesh model. The flesh model may be Susan, or
Sarah, or Jane of the bar and tap-room,--but she must have lips to
kiss, hair to touch, form to caress---"
"Saint Moses!" cried Cicely, with an excited wriggle of her long
legs--"Must she?"
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