Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Nature -- Fiction; Triangles (Interpersonal relations) -- Fiction; Wales -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
'Eh, but it ud anger Ed'ard sore if he came to know,' she thought.
'What for does Mr. Reddin come, when he can see I dunna want him?'
A slow flush crept over neck and temples as she half guessed the
answer.
She waited in the dove-grey hour that precedes dawn--an hour pregnant
with the future. It is full of hope; for what great deed may not be
done, what ethereal idea caged in music or poetry or colour, what rare
emotion struck out of pain in the coming day? It is full of grief; for
how many beautiful things will be trampled, great dreams torn,
sensitive spirits crucified in the time between dusk and dusk? For the
death-pack hunts at all hours, light and dark; it is no pale phantom of
dreams. It is made not of spirit hounds with fiery eyes--a ghastly
'Melody,' a grisly 'Music'--, but of our fellows, all that have
strength without pity. Sometimes our kith and kin, our nearest
intimates, are in the first flight; give a view-hallo as we slip
hopefully under a covert; are in at the death. It is not the killing
that gives horror to the death-pack so much as the lack of the impulse
not to kill. One flicker of merciful intention amid relentless action
would redeem it. For the world is founded and built up on death, and
the reality of death is neither to be questioned nor feared. Death is a
dark dream, but it is not a nightmare. It is mankind's lack of pity,
mankind's fatal propensity for torture, that is the nightmare. When a
man or woman, confronted by helpless terror, is without the impulse to
save, the world becomes hell. It was this, dimly but passionately felt,
that made Hazel shrink from Reddin. For unless Reddin was without this
impulse to save, and had the mind of a fiend without pity, how could he
in the mere pursuit of pleasure inflict wholly unnecessary torture, as
in fox-hunting?
She watched Venus shrink from a silver pool to a silver point. She was
full of trouble and unrest. Would she dream of Reddin? Would she go to
sleep at all? Mrs. Marston's armchair loomed in the gathering light,
and she felt guilty again.
The east quickened, as if someone had turned up a light there. She
opened the window, and in rushed the inexpressible sweetness of dawn.
The bush of syringa by the kitchen window swept in its whole fragrance,
heady and sensuous. She took long breaths of it, and thought of
Reddin's green dress, of the queer look in his eyes when he stared long
at her. A curious passivity quite foreign to her came over her now at
the thought of Reddin. What would he look like, what would he say,
would he hold her roughly, if she went to Hunter's Spinney? An
unwilling elation possessed her as she thought of it. It did not occur
to her to wonder why Edward did not kiss her as Reddin did. She took
him as much for granted as a child takes its parents.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account